May 29, 2019
I'm really going to miss...
The way Kara made Lena smile.
seen from Türkiye
seen from France
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seen from China
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seen from Australia
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seen from United States
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seen from Pakistan
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seen from Germany
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I'm really going to miss...
The way Kara made Lena smile.
you
You will give everything you have, and you will fail, You will cry your heart out and nobody will wipe the tears. You will shout for help and nobody will hear you. But that’s ok. In that moment you will be everything and nothing in the same time, you will be in heaven and in hell in the same time, you will be dead and alive in the same time. And it’ll be okay because in that moment you will finaly be you, completely you. and that’s more than okay, that’s essential life.
There for you
When you have someone who wants to help you never let them go, but make sure they understand you can’t just let them in. It takes time.
And I walk through the night, Perfectly alone, yet accompanied By the darkness. No one sees the tears, that cling to my eyes, my cheeks. That drip off my trembling lips. Only the darkness knows my sadness. And I like it that way. I want the world to see my happiness, feel my smile as if it radiates around me. In the daylight I laugh the loudest. Now, I cry the hardest. But that's only for the darkness to know. For the beauty of the sun shall never see my sorrows.
Things might be turning around. I might actually be alright for once.
So I'm just really pissed off right now because this chick is complaining to me how Frozen is racist and not culturally accurate and how it's terrible and all that shit. I am just already so fucking done with the day and I want to punch something. I'm home alone on spring break and I just cleaned the house for my mother. I'm trying to enjoy some anime now but I'm still peeved. I don't know guys. I just don't fucking know.
I self-soothe by looking at the point breakdown of my courses, doing the math, and telling myself that I would still pass the class even if I didn't turn in the assignment.
Then I spend the next however many hours doing said assignment; but, significantly less panicky.