#ithoughtitwasreal

[nucknfutz]

It's suffocating how much I wish you would see me.

I don't understand why all the untruths then abandonment...

[hibahalk]

How can you just walk away like I never even existed... .. #truefriends #iThoughtItWasReal #experience #lovequotes #beauty #controlmyanger #innerpeacequotes #innerwisdom #innerself #feelings #femalewriters #world #atmosphere #mind #feelings #femalewriters #writersofinstagram #writersofinstagrampoetry #poetsofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/Bysz9aWhrW_/?igshid=6nzxobq30iez

[neutro-phil]

so, I dreamt that I was watching pinof 9 and that someone asked, “are you and Dan husbands?” and Phil just goes all smiley and laughs and said “not yet” then turns to look at Dan.

[dadventures]

On a shopping trip today my kid convinced my wife to purchase a ninja costume for him. He made good use of it this afternoon, sneaking from shadow to shadow, and under tables and up door frames. A pair of cheap plastic nun-chucks came with the costume and we were horsing around with them. I remembered this video and showed it to him. As he watched, eyes wide and hands twitching, I was trying to decide whether to tell him it was an ad and CGI, or whether to just let him believe that Bruce Lee was capable of beating these guys at table tennis with a pair of nun-chucks. Afterwords we moved on to playing our own game of ninja vs. dad and I totally forgot about it. 30 minutes later I heard him ask my wife if she would throw a ball at him so he could practice hitting it back with the nun-chucks. I think I'm just going to let him believe this was real. Who knows how far he'll take it?

[hiirenethebean]

Another night. 12:30am.

You know what sucks, not being loved anymore. You know what else sucks, I didn't even do anything and they just didn't love me anymore. That's what hurts the most. I didn't do nothing wrong and it was no ones fault, but I was just not loved anymore. But yet, I'm still here, still in love, with that same person. And they probably don't even care because they "don't love me" anymore and they pushed me out of their life for something "better."I have this bipolar emotion problem where I clearly don't give a fuck anymore or I clearly can't stop thinking about this person. When I'm out of my house, I'm distracted. When I'm locked in my room ready for bed, my mind goes crazy. Crazy thoughts, crazy imaginations, to crazy dreaming. I just can't help it. That's the problem with me and no one understands it. When I love, I love too much. And when I love too much, it's harder for me to let go because I gave all my love to them. I guess this is what happens when you fall in love with someone who you didn't think you would fall in love with and end up with so much feelings and emotions.  Fuck. Love is crazy. Especially this one I thought that was real. I'm just the type of person who says I love you and means it.