Having that serious case of #fomo especially since being released from the hospital Friday morning. A cold that I caught 3-4 weeks ago lingered & turned into damn near full body deterioration. STRESS. I did this. Thing is, the hospital was actually more concerned in my mental state & why I feel like I shouldn't belong in this earth. All I do is stress & hold myself back from enjoying things like I used to & want to do. I'm too hard on myself, but don't care about myself. It's confusing. I like to waste my own time I guess, haha. I guess I should stop being so weird & suck it up & pick up my life, right? I do feel that depression is selfish to a point. I hate what I made my life: nothing. Now I pay for it. I did this to myself, but a lot of outside forces did help; Now I'm just a shell of a human. . I'm about tired of running & hiding, & I'm always whining about getting help but never do. It'll take some time for me to really come out & REALLY make progress, so I can't make any promises.. #socialmediaanxiety #stoprunningfromlove #peopleactuallycare . . #dsm5 #majordepressivedisorder #leukocytosis #fightforyourlife #dontgiveup #whyamihere #fluseason #ithurtseverywhere #debbydowner #depressionisreal #diagnosis #mydemonsmademedoit #theprettyonesarealwayssad #thecuteonesarealwayscrazy #manup #youcouldbedoingworse #youcouldbedoingsomethingproductive
