you broke my heart like i never thought it could break.
and i dont mean it like it hurts
not because it doesnt but because it feels like someone vaccumed what was left out of my tenderness for u and ran away with it.
i have wanted, so badly, to be close to you
i have had faith and believed in you
and i didnt want to be harsh because i thought you were hurting
and i was so wrong
you are wearing this plastic, shiny facade and at times it is wonderful!
Is relatable, I can understand
and then i peel off the shine from you and you are so empty and filled with distaste and bitterness that i just cant believe its you, that i chose to close my eyes and touch only the soft parts.
and its not your fault, for sure.
I am guessing i broke your heart too.
i am telling you that at one point i valued you so much and wanted to give you all my loving, because i saw you so capable of being able to carry it.
it is my fault to be puting so much on your lap when you werent even able to carry your own bullshit.
i dont trust you anymore
no matter how much i love you and i do, i do..i do.
i just dont like you.
your grotesque masquarade of not giving a fuck is making me sick ..
because i know you dont.
its one thing to be indiferent.
and its one thing to actually be an empty motherfucker.
so,here, you broke my heart!
and i dont believe in you anymore
and i have no faith in what you can be or if you can do better
but i hope you prove me wrong
