#itsay ep4

[pigeonriot]

feel like teh invented a new gay experience, crying in the passenger seat of a motorcycle, that you share with vegetables, while your brother is driving.

[gunsatthaphan]

I told sunset about you ep4 + favorite shots

[liankuea]

I got the hell in! You're so lucky. Who relinquished?

[editslune]

PP Krit | icons ☆

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[solariconsblog]

Itsay Lockscreens

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[martinmynster]

i think the final shot of Teh's butchered textbook is so heartbreaking bc after what his mom said you truly realize how studying is the only language he knows how to express himself in. he made himself physically sick studying for years bc that's the only way he thought he could matter or shine in his mother's people's eyes. he's been pouring everything he had in it for years. along his worth he put the most intimate parts of himself in it (see: the obsessive writing of words he cant get out). you realize (even more plainly) everytime he tried to reach out he went for studying. (boat scene ep2, beach scene ep3, last scene ep3, street confrontation ep4, etc.). it's his comfort zone, the only thing he feels he's in control of and at the same time the only way he knows how to access the most vulnerable parts of himself.

that's why when i say he gave (not 'sacrificed' i really dont think it's this way) everything he had, i mean it ! i completely understand Oh-aew's side but Teh tried his best, is completely alone in this and i know the despair must be bottomless.

[saycute-chibi]

Your touch lights up my world.

[pangswave]

okay what if billkin n ppkrit’s version of 如何 （rúhé）express and show their feelings as teh and oh aew?

let’s start with billkin’s version. it starts with drums and already have a very loud beginning. when the chorus hit you hear that it is a powerful ballad with many louder instruments in the background. what i’m thinking is that from teh’s perspective he sees his feelings as messy and loud. in the bridge other people are singing and the song only gets higher notes and attack the listener. in this case, teh feels that he doesn’t understand. he gets louder in the song: he calls for help. he has many feelings for what he’s feeling towards oh aew and can’t pinpoint exactly what: the song over and over again changes rhythm and musical instruments and even volume of the song.

then for pp’s version. here the song is a 180. it starts with a soft piano and a blow instrument. his voice is more comforting when he starts singing and way calmer than billkin’s. as the chorus begins, pp doesn’t raise his voice and the pacing of the song never changes and the calm feeling remains even in the second verse. oh aews feelings in this scenario is that he is more sure of his feelings. in the beginning, yes, he did have feelings for bas and for a while both bas and teh. but he has never been so sure that he feels love towards teh. he doesn’t ask for help, bc he doesn’t need it. in the part where no words utter, only pp’s voice painfully singing alone with a piano is countered by billkin’s version where other people are singing and it’s an actual opera behind him. teh only ever saw them as friends and want to remain friends with oh aew. teh keep his friends close and never feel alone when he’s with them, therefore the song is more powerful and you don’t feel alone. he also feels (felt) a mutual love for tarn. with oh aew, he feels alone even with people and feels alone in his pining for teh. therefore he’s alone

these songs i feel represent their feelings perfectly. with a loud song expressing the confusion and stress revolving teh’s feelings and a quiet and vulnerable feeling to oh aew’s song.