So mi madre sat me down tonight to have a discussion about my anxiety. Almost had an attack at pre-orientation feeling overwhelmed with everything. She brought up trying to make an appointment to see a doctor about my heart. Said that maybe one of the reasons I get them is because my heart is overworking and it causes stress. She brought up how when I had my heart appointments and meds as a kid, the doctor explained that I have arrhythmia aka my heart over works it's self and causes it to skip beats. She guessed that maybe that's a factor in what causes my anxiety. I felt embarrassed being reminded about it because I honestly have blurred out that time in my life when I would go to appointments and take medication. Going through the whole thing when I was younger freaked me out so much and since it brought so much more attention to me medically, I was just over the situation. She even brought up that at one point I just stopped taking the medication and never followed up, which probably wasn't the best thing to do. Even brought up also that it could cause a lot of problems later in life. "He said that your heart could just get so tired of being overworked that it will stop completely." Of course even though her intention was just being concerning and just wanted to shed some light that I shouldn't freak out and take precautions, it has me slightly on edge. 🙃🙃
