Wow! I cannot believe two things about this day: 1) it has been 150 days since I have felt his lips on mine and 2) I have realized how strong I am in these last 150 days. In these last 5 months (to the day), I have said goodbye to you (twice in a matter of 4 days thanks to the army), moved out of the home that Addy and I knew for 3yrs, looked at 55 houses, put in offers on 2, got my heart broken by the first house falling through, lost hope, gained faith, found our home, closed on it, painted the entire thing, moved in, dreamed of you beside me every night, cried myself to sleep, woke up smiling numerous times when I saw a text or phone call or FaceTime coming through, saw many countdowns end, been fearful of every knock at the door or odd number I don't know of, and realized that in a little over 100 days one thing; this will ALL be worth it. That day at green ramp, I will be there holding my sign and Addy will be holding hers to welcome you back into our arms again my squishy. Our marriage is stronger than any amount of time apart and distance between us. I love you Alexander. To the moon, past the stars,through every single black hole, to infinity and beyond... And back! MUAH!