#ivanfictive

[fictive-confessions]

No no, I have to say I agree with the previous Ivan! There seems to be a great amount of Ivans and so few of the rest of the cast... I've yet to see a single active Mizi or Sua, and only maybe one or two Lukas, which is very sad.

Though it would be a little funny to have a group chat of only Ivan fictives and kins....

- Ivan #👁️‍🗨️🎙️

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[fictionkinfessions]

I know we both loved and hated and admired each other but andrew im so sorry. I think about everything and guilt overwhelms me like a waterfall. I love you andrew. Not just for your work, but for you. I love younso much. At least I do now. I dont care if you forgive me I just want you to be okay

- ivan (fictive) (source is bad things on roblox)

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[fictionkinfessions]

hi guys. uhm. ivan (bad things) fictive here. WHY DO I KIN SUBSPACE PHIGHTING. WHAT

our spirutal kins are collective but not all choose to identify with them. or not all have feels towards them. but why do I GET the feeels. anyway

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[fictionkinfessions]

me, calling around dentists for the past week: please please take our insurance (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠) we have a referral from a dentist please (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠) our teeth need extracted (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠) ill switch our insurance for you please please remove our teeth (⁠•⁠‿⁠•⁠)

Ivan, who has read one too many dental horror stories, from the backseat: NOOOOO!!!! .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠. What if they take our snaggletooth!!!! What if they desharpen our canines!!!!!!!!

koogle (kin google) how do I get my headmate to stop thinking every dentist we see is going to steal his pointy teeth. also do you think if I paid Hyuna $50 dollars and a kiss she'd knock me out with a steel chair and pull out the teeth herself. That'd require having Hyuna by my side first but a husband can dream can't he

- Luka (+ Ivan, I guess) fictive (Alien Stage) [#catfightsys🐾] [#🖤🏵️🌑] (please use the system tag, not Ivan's tag)

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[fictive-confessions]

any ivan alien stagers out here feeling VERY SHITTY about source like i am for me its a hyperfixation but can also make me so sad im close to bursting into tears i miss mizi i miss till -🎀🩰

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[fictionkinfessions]

VIVINOS and Qmeng are incorrect. I am not a dog. I am the cat you think hates you and follows you around plotting your downfall when in reality the one thought occupying my brain is dedicated to loving you. It's just that I show it through biting.

And by "you," I mean Till.

- Ivan fictive (Alien Stage) [#🖤🏵️🌑]

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[fictionkinfessions]

We've had a migraine for 3 days. Ended the day the second part of Till's POV comic dropped. Luka forbade me from getting emotional about it because he's the one that's been dealing with the migraine. And crying always triggers another headache.

But now that it's almost Sunday as of writing this: AUGH.

AUGH!!!!

AUGH?!???!???!!

I'm normal. Completely normal. Totally not sobbing. Seeing what happened after my death is a fun experience. Definitely.

I know that the ending wouldn't have changed. We were all family, the four of us. You wouldn't have left without them. And I wouldn't have left without you—never. And as long as we were all stuck there, a perfectly happy ending wouldn't have been achievable.

But. God. Things could have been a little happier if we had just communicated better, couldn't they? Less regrets at the end of it.

... I'm still very bad at properly communicating my feelings. There's a lot of things I want to say but I'm not sure how to. So, instead of doing the thing again and spending hours over this, I'll just finish with:

Thank you for living, Till. Thank you for being you.

- Ivan fictive (Alien Stage) [#🖤🏵️🌑]

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[fictionkinfessions]

Ah. I spent so much time trying to write down my feelings for Till in a confession that my headmates started getting annoyed—then his POV comic was dropped on VIVINOS's patreon.

Some fans were saying I'd cry if I saw the way Till's hallucination of me treated him. The way it drove him to self-harm. I can confirm that they are correct.

I'm so sorry, Till. I never wanted my memory to become a trauma for you. Please know it wasn't your fault. You were never a burden—you were the best of us.

I love you.

- Ivan fictive (Alien Stage) [#🖤🏵️🌑]

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