When you’re writing your research thesis and realize its gonna have to be turned into an applied project instead. Sigh. Even more stress. I’m already having issues with my thesis. I had to extend my thesis. This has been the most stressful degree I’ve ever achieved in getting. my first initial advisor thought my thesis wasn’t a good fit for her. So she said I would have to look for someone new. Now mind you, I’m in the National Guard my two week annual training (that turned into an entire month of training!) was not helping my situation to find a new thesis advisor. So I had to settle for one that didn’t do research in the field of what I originally wanted to do or do this with no advisor (which they suggested). I choose to have an advisor that wasn’t in my field of research because he still understood the basis of methods research. Now coming in two weeks before its fucking due, what do I decide that Its going to have to be a fucking applied project because hello, I don’t have the information I need for it to finish. However, I have a shit load of literature. I figured I could work with that. Still, be finished on time (even though I asked for an extension thinking I can get what I need but oh no). Except its the fucking holidays (made this decision before Christmas and the new year.) My advisor wouldn’t be available to talk until the week before its fucking due. SO my stress level is high!!! Like no lie I haven’t been able to sleep. My anxiety level is terrible. I love my program I truly due but this was due to poor planning on my part. I tell myself after finishing this Masters degree that “I need a fucking 3 no 4-year vacation from school. Fuck thinking about getting a Ph.D. after this.” I want to be an anthropologist with a Ph.D. but man I so need a break from school guys. This is enough for me to take a break. Way too stressful and I’m freaking out like you’ve no idea. I started smoking again because of it!! I’ve quiet smoking for the last 3 years!!! I’m trying to not be addicted to it by using the gym as my outlet but its....ugh!!! save me. Please!!!
