Nov 27, 2014
Today I got told that I have an eating disorder, my GP legitimately looked at me and said, "How long do you think you've been developing your eating disorder?". I don't want an ED. I just want to get to my goal weight, yes I may obsess about it, but all I fucking want is to get to my goal. I don't want to fucking eat. I don't want to go have fucking blood tests. I just want go stop eating forever and never feel food in my stomach ever again I want to feel like perfection, I don't want to eat and feel fucking disgusting and want to cut anymore. Self control is the only thing I have on my side. I'm the only one on my side. Might as well show them all I can do whatever the FUCK I set my mind too. 43 kilos come the fuck at me.