March 25, 2017
I miss you. A lot. A whole lot. I want to tell you that I love you. Every time I look at my screen and you text something or say something on the phone or do something that's sweet I automatically think in my head "I love you". You were talking on the phone with me yesterday and when you said bye you said "bye, love you" and I felt all warm inside and ashamed because I didn't tell you yet. I want to meet you at least one or two more times before I tell you that I love you. Even though I feel a lot for you I don't know if these feelings are real unless I actually meet you again. With that being said, I still think I will feel these feelings when I meet you so i don't think I have much to worry about. But I don't know how to tell you. I don't want to tell you now. It's too soon. I think I'll wait. I love you. I am falling utterly and hopelessly in LOVE with you. I'm scared. I don't want to say it to you because I feel like if I say it, the universe will ruin my joy. Is that a ugly thing to think or say? Idk. One day I'll tell you.
