oc asks 11 for v'rhym and 14 for irma?
11. Is there any existing character from other media that your character resembles? Was the resemblance intentional or was it a coincidence?
it is very likely, yes, but i am drawing a blank at the moment....... if anyone has suggestions i'll happily take them!
14. Do you have any quotes tied to the character, either from the story itself or from another source that fit them?
OKAY SO. have you heard of obscurity by philippe jaccottet. have you read obscurity by philippe jaccottet. when will you read obscurity by philippe jaccottet,
more seriously it's hard to isolate one quote i associate with her in particular, due to the nature of the book (you will see why. shortly.), and because i associate it with her in its entirety. it is a (very loose, and with a rather peculiar syntax) narrative that is more of a meditation than anything; a gradual effort towards understanding. the plot is very simple: the narrator, after spending several years abroad with minimal contact, comes back home and seeks to reconnect with his mentor (whom he refers to as his "master") - everything is very loosely defined, but said mentor seems to be a poet and philosopher, to whom the disciple is extremely devoted. to his surprise, though, his master has abruptly abandoned his family and his beautiful, serene life and is now living in squalor in a dirty, dark city flat. upon seeing the narrator, he starts a long monologue full of despair and bile, which lasts the whole night; at dawn, the narrator escapes, deeply affected, and tries to make sense of this seemingly incomprehensible and tragic change that his master underwent.
the following excerpt is taken from the second half of the book, near the end (my translation):
"At some given point in his life (but what was this point, and what was it that made it come to pass?), my master must have stepped outside of the enchanted circle which magic I have attempted to conjure throughout these pages; from this moment on, then, as I myself begin to do now, he could only see from the outside this happiness in which he had bathed for so long, and no matter how intently he watched it, with desire and endless regret, the more he will have watched it, the more he will have been pulled away from it. Yes, I seem to sense here a cruel game of some kind, the meaning of which I do not yet understand: the light is not freely given to he who seeks it (so too say the Scriptures), it is taken away, ruthlessly, from he who, having known it, failed to remain within its confines...
Could it be, then, that one cannot be faithful to the light either? For, when my master and I spoke, before, of a possible estrangement from the light, he used to reassure me by saying that what mattered most was not to betray its memory, should we think, one day, that we had lost it; to remain faithful, then, as someone waiting for the dawn, and whose vigil lets us believe that it is the very thing that will allow the night to come to an end.
Did he not simplify the matter too much, show too much confidence? I have already alluded to the way he tended to forget, altogether, anything that got in the way of his life, of his thought. Was it not too convenient a deal to be true? He could plainly feel the precarity of his happiness (moreso than I did); but in order to avoid suffering, he came up with the idea that, even should this happiness draw away, it would be enough to keep within himself the memory and taste of happiness; and in this way would the trial be passed, at no cost to himself... But what is a trial without cost?
It seems to me now, and it is for this reason that I briefly stay my reasoning, that I am not far from unconvering at least one of the causes of my master's collapse: he spoke of trials, but as he assumed unquestioned victory in advance, they weren't trials anymore. He couldn't—or wouldn't—imagine that the trial would, in fact, consist in making him unfaithful, would cause him to see this bygone fulfillment as though far removed, hidden behind an impassable wall, so that he would come, in time, to hate its very sight. The brighter, clearer and more aerial this country was, that he had lived in, the more painful its sight came to be for he who had been cast out. From that moment on, chased by a memory that has suddenly turned ironic, by this now-ferocious radiance, he had been forced to run and seek refuge in the darkest corner of the darkest of cities, and the words I had heard him utter were the ashes with which this newfound mourner never tired of covering his head..."
















