#jacen rambles

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What is it with me and gay couples who are toxic and messy and doomed by the narrative

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I know it's probably been pointed out before, but I am Having Thoughts about the twins' shift in personality after the Big Fall so forgive me but I NEED to rant (here be spoilers be warned)

At first glance it's easy to think that Knives is very cold and emotionless and closed off, but when you look closer, you realize that that's probably the furthest thing from the truth. When we see him as a kid—no matter which iteration of Trigun you're watching—Knives is the high-energy, outgoing twin, with big ambitions and an even bigger desire to go seek out knowledge. Especially in trimax, he's the one who's the most intrigued by humans and wants to get along with them (it should be noted that both of the twins have a very black-and-white way of thinking and a very strong sense of justice; I personally headcanon both of them as autistic). He's the one who follows Rem around the ship, constantly bombarding her with why why why, and when she doesn't give him answers—either because said answers to his questions require a level of maturity he doesn't yet have to understand, or because Rem is fucking tired from taking care of twin alien boys who age rapidly and could blow up the entire fleet with their godlike powers—Knives stubbornly starts to look for them himself.

Then the Tesla incident happens. For Knives, this is the mother of all fuckery, and he basically is subjected to the alien equivalent of watching Mufasa get K.O.'ed by a herd of wildebeests in The Lion King. This scares the living shit out of him, because every one of his prior beliefs have just been obliterated. Knives being naturally very inquisitive and hungry for knowledge... well, after Rem comes and gets them and calms them down, Knives starts digging. He doesn't want to believe that this is what humans are capable of, but as he combs through the ship's data archives, he keeps getting atrocity after atrocity thrown in his face. Knives bears witness to the horrors of mankind's history, and with his black-and-white thinking, he can't help just fucking losing it.

We're all pretty aware that Knives wears his heart on his sleeve. Sure he acts all cool and calculating, but when he's actually in the heat of the moment, he clearly reacts to everything in a very emotional manner. That adventurous, energetic little kid he once was is still in there, but he's been damaged so very badly, and twisted to where his strong emotions are expressed almost entirely as anger and his inquisitive nature has become recklessness; Knives just doesn't know when to stop, because he can't. All he's been focused on for the past century and a half is the survival of himself and his kind, and he's basically been in a kind of high-alert attack mode since the Big Fall.

Knives has built up a shell around himself. A sharp, spiky shell of weaponized emotions, that nothing but Vash can break through.

Speaking of Vash, he was a pretty shy, reserved kid. Especially in tristamp, he's the softspoken, mama's boy type. He's pretty clingy towards Rem especially, and he's more than happy to let Knives do all the decision-making and talking. He fits the younger sibling archetype very well, despite him and Knives being twins.

When the Tesla incident happens, Vash takes it a bit better. He's not curious to a fault like Knives is, so he takes Rem's word for it when she reassures him and says that she would never let anything happen to him or his brother. Instead of flipping his viewpoints on a dime out of fear, Vash instead becomes even more firm in his ideals: yes, humans are by no means perfect, but they've been nothing but kind to him and Knives so far. Vash comes to the conclusion that if he doesn't give the humans a reason to hurt him, everything will be okay, so Vash constructs a wall around himself like Knives did, only Vash's is purely defensive and deliberately disarming. Especially after the Big Fall, Vash is extremely aware of how untrusting humanity is of him, so he pours all his energy into making himself as likeable and non-threatening as he can.

Unlike Knives, we rarely see Vash react to dangerous situations with genuine emotion. It's very obvious that Vash's careless, happy-go-lucky attitude is a construct that he uses to hide his true feelings, and a meticulously-constructed one at that—in the '98 anime, Wolfwood is one of the few people who seem to be able to pick up on this and point it out. Sure, Vash might be a genuinely good-hearted and hopeful person, but he's just as scared as Knives is, only he hides behind a facade and tries to make himself as palatable to humans as he can (yet another reason why I headcanon the twins as autistic; homeboy has been masking for literal centuries and when he finally ends up having a meltdown because of it he levels cities lmao).

Vash has also built up a shell around himself. His, however, is deliberately made to seal himself away from the world, out of fear for himself, humanity, and the rest of his kind.

forgive me for the long post but I am rotating these two little shits in my Mind Microwave omg

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Rewatching Firefly and these three DEFINITELY fucked at some point

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I want to top him give him a cowboy hat and a little kiss on the cheek :D

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Hi guys I made a quiz that assigns you one of my various tortured blorbos please enjoy

there are so many things wrong with these guys. they have all killed people and would benefit greatly from years of fucking therapy. I love

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Have I seen house of the dragon?? No. Have I seen or read game of thrones?? Also no. Am I upset that Vhagar is getting flamed for an incident that COULDVE been avoided if her rider wasn’t being a jackass??? YES VERY

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guys I’m not ok I’m Having Ideas. anyway I’ve started writing a Trigun tlou au!!! I am so goddamn mentally ill :D

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What if the main wwv cast were to find a feral/stray animal? Like a cat or something?

Situation: the Wormwoodverse main cast and their individual reactions to being approached by a feral cat. Results: ………….mixed

Tommy: Starts marching around, holding up the cat and proudly announcing that he “has a new friend” who is “a cooler, funnier, awesome-er version of Tubbo” called “Pussbo.” Is completely oblivious to the fact that this cat is furiously biting and scratching and trying to escape.

Ranboo: Has a staring contest with the cat. He then proceeds to trauma dump on the poor thing because animals can’t talk and this overrides the crippling anxiety Ranboo has with taking about his feelings. The poor cat is mentally scarred.

Tubbo: ECSTATIC to have a new fuzzy lil friend. Goes around showing the cat to everyone like Tommy, only the cat actually likes him and isn’t trying to reduce his fingers to hamburger helper.

Quackity: Claims he doesn’t care about the cat. Vehemently proclaims that he doesn’t and never will want a cat. Is later caught snuggling with said cat while drinking a beer and listening to the radio.

Eret: Treats the cat exactly like a human child (“yes Quackity dear this means we have another child please set another spot at the dinner table-“)

Ant: Spends a good fifteen minutes alone in a room with the cat, just staring the each other dead in the eyes and growling. Then proceeds to bond with said cat so well that Velvet gets extremely jealous, and sitcom-like shenanigans ensue.

Velvet: Falls in love immediately, and runs over and grabs the cat while making obnoxious kissy noises. Ends up absolutely spoiling the cat, claiming that it’s “his firstborn son” and that “Ant I can’t believe I cook and clean and slave away in my garage all damn day Ant the least you can do is help me raise our child-”

Bad: UNATTENDED CHILD SPOTTED. NEW OBJECTIVE—ADOPTION

Gumi: literally just starts crying out of joy