I'm sorry that I treat you guys like all I want from you is roleplay. I know I do it, but I can't help it. I try to get involved with how you feel, and care about things other than roleplay. But I think if you knew all the things about my life that I hide, all the hurt people have abused me with, all the issues I have that sent my to a psych ward last May I think you would understand me. I try and stay away from people outside of roleplay because I try to not get emotionally invested, that and roleplay is my escape. You have to understand in my life, in order to escape the pain and fear I feel, I dive head first into another life, into Wyatt's. Its just, its how I cope. If you get mad at me I'm sorry, I wanna be closer to you guys, but my life? I've gotten to the point where feeling my own emotions? Is almost impossible, I never cry because I cried too much as a child and never let it out and so I live through Wyatt to feel and that's why I press for roleplays. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but know I love you.