Genuine question: does anybody know when exactly the 'Jackson Wang Party Host' tag escaped the k-pop fics and bled into the other fic worlds? Like, what was that first ever non k-pop fic that used 'Jackson Wang Party Host'? What was the first fic ever to use 'Jackson Wang Party Host'? And when did fic writers who were not even into fringe k-pop use 'Jackson Wang Party Host' in their non k-pop fic? And why did most of them choose to make the walking, talking gentleman that Jackson is IRL; into an asshole villian character?
I feel it is such a unique thing to happen. Has it happened to any other popular fic character, fictional or otherwise?
Even though some would say he’s just thinking about what he’s going to have for breakfast when he wakes in the morning, or blame it on the photo’s editing, I do believe that there’s genuinely something tired and exhausted there. I see the photo, and I’m taken aback at how contemplative his facial expression is (which isn’t a bad thing. He can’t smile all the dang time). It just seems like a lot is going through in his head. I really do hope he’s doing okay. Hopefully he isn’t overworking himself.
Jackson must realize he’s enough and there’s people out there who genuinely care about him. If he does have a lot going on, and a possible drinking problem, or on the verge of burnout, or depressed, or whatever people think, I’ll still be a fan. The human condition is real, and he’s human too.
All your fans are rooting for you, Jackson! Your music has helped people, and you’re always giving your 113%. Like Jinyoung says, you should trust your abilities and the beauty within.
“It’s so hard to pretend to be friends with someone special, when every time you look at that person, all you see is everything want to have.”
Summary: Have a best friend who sticks with you through thick and thin is impossible to find. The moment you met Jackson, you know he was going to be your best friend for life. Jackson always knew how to make sure you were happy and healthy and always seemed to turn a negative situation into a positive one. However, you would be lying to yourself if you were to say you didn’t have any type of feelings for Jackson… But Jackson is just your best friend… You knew best to push those feelings away and just move on.
Previous Parts:
Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 //
After having time to yourself, you realized that the way you felt about Jackson was not just missing as a best friend... Now that you are thinking about it you had way more feelings towards Jackson than you ever expected.
You claimed that Jackson was nothing but a best friend but deep down inside you saw him as a man... And as hard as it might be to admit it but you think you might be in love with Jackson... It took you a while to figure this out but... Now that you think about it, everything just makes sense.
Why did it take so long for you to notice?
You had to lose Jackson in order to figure out that you’ve been in love with Jackson this whole time... It’s crazy but true.
What do you even do now? You’re still in a relationship with Yoongi and well it seems like he’s happy in his relationship.
You seem to have bad timing with everything and probably one of the worst lucks. It is what it is.
This might be a very stupid decision you were planning to make but you made up your mind.
You’re planning to stay with Yoongi until he gives you other motives that he’s not being loyal...
You looked at the time and even though it was too early to go to sleep, you decided you should just sleep and call it a day. You were in one of those moods that you didn’t want to be around anyone.
~
Jackson’s Point of View
I tried my hardest to ignore the fact that I was worried about Y/N. If I am being honest after seeing the whole incident back in the theater and speaking to her, I couldn’t help but think of her.
If I am being honest I have no idea why we stopped talking in the first place. I mean I understand that we kind of just drifted apart the moment she began to get closer to Yoongi. But we never talked about it...
Are we supposed to end our friendship that way?
Irene and I walked out of the theater and she looked at me.
“Are you alright?” I realized that I've been busy thinking about this whole situation about Y/N and I. I’ve been awfully quiet to Irene.
“Yeah. I’m just letting the movie sink in with me,” I said smiling and she giggled.
“What did you think?”
“It wasn’t bad, but we could have done something way more fun than this,” I said, wiggling my eyebrows.
“Like?”
“Let’s find out and see,” I grabbed her hand and we walked off.
As much as I wish I could go back to being best friends with Y/N I don’t think it would be possible. The only way I can ever have her as a best friend again is once I know I don’t feel anything for her.
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Your Point of View
It was midnight and you were trying your hardest to fall asleep. You already had a shitty day if we are being honest. Right now you had no one you could just call to talk about how you’re feeling and that’s sad...
You didn’t have your best friend... NOT EVEN your own boyfriend.
Yoongi apparently is with his “cousin.” This whole cousin situation isn’t sitting right with you... You knew damn well he is probably cheating but instead of cutting him off, there is a side of you that wasn’t to give him the benefit of the doubt.
If you lose him then you won’t have anyone...
Sure you have friends but they were friends that you only spoke to when you all were at parties not on a personal level.
You grabbed your phone and was planning to maybe call Yoongi but as you were about to click his name something made you stop.
Forget it...
You don’t know if it was the fact that you were in your feelings you ended up clicking on Jackson’s name instead.
Without realizing it you were suddenly calling him... You began to panic and was planning to hang up but the phone began to ring... Shit...
You brought the phone to your ear and suddenly the phone stopped ringing. You were hoping to hear his answer machine instead of having him pick it up. What the hell are you supposed to tell him when he answers... Obviously, he’s going to ask why the hell are you calling him...
So many thoughts were occurring in your head and before you knew it you heard his voice.
Y/N?
To be honest you were even surprised to see that Jackson still had your phone number. To be honest you thought he probably deleted it the moment you two seemed to drift apart...
Can we talk?
Although you probably aren't thinking clearly, you were tired of feeling upset and having unanswered questions. After seeing him at the theater you knew the only way you could really accept that Jackson doesn’t want you in his life is from hearing it come out of his mouth.
Um... can we meet around 8?
You heard a female laugh in the back and you remembered he was probably still with his girlfriend.
Sure...
The two of you hung up and you sighed...
~
It was 8... You didn’t even have to say where to meet because you two had a special “Talking” spot.
You walked over to the bench that was near the docs in front of the ocean. You sat down and tried to collect your thoughts before you saw Jackson.
One side of you was hoping that the two of you could go back to being best friends and go back to spending time like you used to... But you knew that seemed rather impossible when you realized you have feelings for the boy.
Regardless of your feelings, you weren’t planning to bring it up, especially since you are with Yoongi and Jackson is with Irene. You have no choice but to suck up the situation and just hope you can at least have your best friend back.
The longer you felt the time the more anxious you suddenly felt. You couldn’t help but start picking at your nails.
“Y/N,” you looked up and saw Jackson there before you.
Shit, he is actually here... Now that the two of you have no choice but to address the situation. You two looked at each other but you quickly looked away.
“Um.... sit,” you said sitting on one edge of the bench and he sat on the other.
“It’s been a while,” Jackson blurted out and you nodded your head...
“Yeah... How have you been?” You weren’t sure how you were planning to approach the situation. You could feel how awkward the tension was between the two of you. This has never happened between the two of you before so it was weird...
Moments like this make you wish you could go back in time and change everything... but unfortunately you can’t do such a thing.
“I’ve been great.... and you?” Jackson asks, catching you slightly off guard.
To be honest you were surprised to even have Jackson ask how you are... To be honest you always thought that after Jackson cut you off, he stopped caring.
“I’ve been fine,” you couldn’t tell Jackson you were doing great because that was a lie...
Then pure silence...
Okay now is your chance to talk now... You wanted to understand what went wrong. You focused all your attention on Jackson and took a deep breath before you dared to ask him.
“I asked you to come here today because... there is something I’ve been wanting to ask you...” Jackson just stood quiet and looked at you.
You didn’t know what to ask him exactly. Do you hate me? Why do you want nothing to do with me? What did I do wrong? Where did everything go wrong? There were so many ways to ask the question...
“Are you mad at me?” You asked him and waited for him to respond.
You were hoping for Jackson to say more but all that comes out of his mouth is “no.”
How are you supposed to feel now? You still haven’t gotten the answer that you are looking for.
One side of you was planning to just let everything go and move on with your life but the other side wasn’t going to allow that. If Jackson isn’t planning to tell you what happened between the both of you, then now it’s your chance to tell him how you felt and let him be.
“Jackson I am about to sound ridiculous and right about now I don’t seem to care. I don’t understand what the hell happened. You and I were in such a good place. You were my best friend, you were someone I could rely on and someone I could always count on and then suddenly you disappeared. The moment Yoongi came into my life you suddenly got up and left. Why? Did I give you the right to walk into my life for you to leave whenever you feel like it? I am a person who happens to have feelings too. I think it’s only right that you tell me why you suddenly cut me out of your life. Jackson... I thought you and I were much closer than that but I guessed wrong...”
You stopped talking and felt tears stream down your cheeks, but you quickly wiped them out.
You were hoping to make Jackson speak this way but again he was just quiet.
Now you felt even more stupid...
“I see,” these were the only words Jackson managed to speak out... DID HE JUST SAY HE SEES?!
You wanted to get up and scream at him but what was the point?
You spoke your mind out and tried to talk to him but it seems like Jackson doesn’t seem to even care about how you’re feeling and whether to fix the friendship or not. Did your friendship with him mean nothing?
There was so much you wanted to say but you avoided it.
“Well now that I know where you stand... And I got that out of my chest. I guess it doesn’t matter anymore. Our friendship was pointless... Unfortunately, I guess I invested In this friendship a lot more than you have so I just hope you take care of yourself and... Yeah,”
You didn’t know what else to say. You wanted to scream at Jackson and just yell at him for being such a shitty person. How can you invest so much time in a person and then they suddenly want to cut you off just because they can? Absolutely no explanation, they just cut you off and now you have to wonder what you did wrong.
You began to walk away until you hear Jackson say your name.
“Y/N,”
You looked at him and you suddenly developed a little hope that he was about to explain himself to you... But boy did you speak way too soon.
“I cared a lot more than you think,”
Jackson just says those exact words, and turns. around and walks with his hands in his pockets.
He cared... Past tense...
This was it... Jackson was now just another stranger in your life with a lot of memories...
~
“Hey babe, sorry I didn’t come sooner. I was caught up at my mother’s house,” Yoongi says as he pulls you into a hug and as you smell him, he has a woman's perfume scent to him.
Did Yoongi just say, mother? Didn’t he say he was going to spend time with his cousin? Maybe he made a mistake and meant to say cousin’s house...
“Oh how is your mother?” you continued to engage in the conversation waiting to see if maybe he would have corrected himself from his mistake.
“Good. It was nice to catch up on some mother and son bond,” Yoongi doesn’t even bother trying to correct himself.
Just from hearing this the first thought that appeared in your head was that Yoongi was lying to you... The only reason why a guy would lie to you about his whereabouts is more likely because they could have been with another woman...
You had this gut feeling that Yoongi could be cheating... But you wanted proof. You were the type to make assumptions but what if you were wrong and there was a perfectly good excuse for why he lied. . . It’s very unlikely but you just had hope that he wasn’t cheating.
You felt Yoongi looking at you. As you looked at him you were wondering if he noticed how puffy your eyes were from crying. . . But nope.
“I missed you,” he says as he continues to have his arms wrapped around you.
“Me too,”
~
Jackson’s Point of View
I would be lying if I were to say that I was no longer conflicted about my situation with Y/N. I thought by talking to her we would have closure but now I am questioning whether what I did was even the right decision.
Am I being selfish for just suddenly cutting her off without an explanation?
Yes, she’s with Yoongi. . . But if I would have come clean right then and there and told her how I felt. . . Could that have changed anything?
I had so many questions but they were all unanswered.
I felt my phone vibrating and I pulled it out from my pocket and see Irene’s name appear. After the night I had I didn’t want to talk to anyone but I knew I couldn’t ignore Irene.
I picked up the phone and answered the call.
“Hey, beautiful,”
“I was starting to wonder where you were,” Irene says and I suddenly felt guilty.
Why am I still feeling kind of upset? I just ended things with Y/N. I should be happy right now, especially with the fact that I have someone like Irene in my life. Why do I feel like something is missing?
“Sorry, I met up with a friend of mine to return his things. It was short notice but he’s leaving town soon so it was the only time I got to see him,” I didn’t mean to necessarily lie to her like this, but it was pointless to explain anything to her.
I wouldn’t want Irene to feel worried about someone who is no longer in my life. . . Right?
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Your Point of View
After getting the verification that Jackson wanted nothing to do with you, it helped you conclude that you had no choice but to accept that you no longer had a best friend.
To avoid feeling upset about the situation, you decided to keep yourself busy.
Yoongi had work to do, which didn’t bother you. If anything it allowed you to run a few errands and try to work on a few things.
Before running errands you wanted to clean your room, rearrange a few furniture around, and hide any pictures you had out with Jackson.
You weren’t planning to throw the pictures away, if anything you were just planning to put them away, away from where you won’t see them.
There was a wall you had in your room that was filled with a bunch of random pictures whether it was mixed with you with friends or you with family. You had all kinds of pictures with different people all around, but most of the pictures you had were with Jackson.
You two were always together and almost inseparable but look how that changed.
Any picture that had Jackson included, you removed from the wall.
If Jackson wants to throw this friendship away without telling you why then you have to accept the fact and move on.
Your phone suddenly rings. You looked down and saw that an old friend of yours was suddenly calling you.
You picked up the phone and brought it to your ear.
“Nani?”
It’s been so long since you’ve spoken to her. The last thing you heard from her was the fact that she left to go to school internationally. . . And that was about 2 years ago.
“Y/N! Oh, I am so glad you haven’t changed your number, or I would have been mad,” you smiled. Seems like she hasn’t changed.
“Wow, it’s been so long. How have you been?”
“Girl I have so much to tell you about, which is why we need to hang out!”
You stopped what you were doing and was confused.
“Wait. . . You’re in Korea?” You asked her.
“Of course! Let’s go to our usual. BRING JACKSON!” When she said Jackson’s name you went from almost forgetting what happened to suddenly remembering all over again.
“He won’t be coming,”
“What wh- you know what bring your cute butt over here and we will catch up. I’m sure you have a lot to tell me too,”
You both exchanged byes and you began to get ready...
Although you knew the topic of Jackson was going to be brought up sooner or later, you were still excited to see her. You were hoping that when you meet up with her she can make you feel better... Because for some reason you suddenly felt like no one wanted anything to do with you...
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To be continued
*Tbh I wouldn’t be surprised if people forgot about this story because it’s been A WHILE I KNOW IM SORRY*
