WHY DO YOU HURT?
@valkblue made this happen. *sigh* Well then here comes the pain train everyone. For those who haven’t met them already, these are the same paramilitary disasters as in this post, who (unfortunately ?) happen to play a part in the later chapters of the second part of her Westworld fanfic. 👀
you're choking on how much you have to try
you have tried. you have carried the weight of the world on your shoulders and accepted more responsibilities than you have ever wanted, even intended to gain. it isn't crushing - you are strong enough to hold it - but you are choking. you don't know what to do with it. you don't know where it goes, how to move this weight everyone knows you can hold onto, and do you even want to get rid of it? Never. You would not give this to - force this on - anyone else. but you /can't/. but you are choking on it. your body will hold it up even when you lose all the air in your lungs, and your footing, and your courage. it does not mind choking you. it seems almost designed to do so. if you weren't wrung out you wouldn't be doing this thing properly.
you were meant to
it was built into you. designed for you. there is pain here because it was meant for you, and how fucking dare they. your suffering is not their right. you hurt because they gave you ways to suffer and carved it into you when you could not breathe, because the intention always was that they could weaponize your pain against you. it is Yours. You are Yours. How fucking dare they. they cannot make you theirs; do not let them try.
As for tagging, in all honesty, I’m really curious what @appalachianlich can do with that one. I let you chose who you want to cut open. 👀