26. What’s the hardest thing about being rejected?
43. What is the biggest risk you’ve taken just to prove yourself?
71. How often do you say yes to the things you really want to say yes to?
90 loaded questions / interview the muse + answered 1/10 on how difficult it was to answer - Very late answer but still accepting anyway
26. What’s the hardest thing about being rejected?
This is more difficult than he suspected the question to sound. At one time it might've had a more simple and to the point answer... but he does have enough awareness now in his life to have more to say.
He's visibly, slightly unsettled. "Knowing the reasons for why that happened, and not knowing what to do about them."
43. What is the biggest risk you’ve taken just to prove yourself?
He can't help a reflexive hand that goes to cover his heart defensively. A hand that drops a moment later, as he stares at it almost resentfully for making a weak point of him so clear. The scar from the shard of ice still remains, he can almost still feel the ache as it had barely missed his heart.
"...My life, to prove I'm more worthy than any other Contractor, to stand at Amber's side." He answers, to the point but with a hint of hesitance.
"I'm not special for that anyway," he adds on, as though he's speaking to someone who would argue with his choice. "Contractors do this all the time, and it's what she wants of me. To assist and protect her, to make sure things progress as soundly as possible."
Yet now he sits alone, answering questions on his phone.
71. How often do you say yes to the things you really want to say yes to?
A confusing question, until he's forced to actually think about it. He feels as though he says yes to things that he would want all the time, who wouldn't? But... that requires him to have a want, that isn't coming from an outside source. Yet that's what happens, things are assumed of him and he goes along with it; most of the time because it makes the most sense.
The question isn't really 'how often do you say yes to things you want?', it's more 'how often do you have a want that is your own?'
That's harder to say. He feels as though he has felt his own wants before, but acting on them? ...Maybe it was becoming more common, without him feeling like she was looking over his shoulder metaphorically. But it was still very slim, fleeting thoughts as worse problems lingered in his mind much more lately.
"...Maybe not as often as I should." He admits quietly.
