#jane tag

[ndrew-ender-wiggin]

shadow of the giant spoilers

[mamasplat]

i have no organizational skills. 3am (by the time im finishing this: 4am). i am jane real life. courtney.

save for very typical room things, a laptop, a banner, and the tm for dark pulse, it's easy to see: courtney's room is very empty.

we know this is courtney's room because the laptop contains many images of maxie. many maxies is a telltale sign of courtney cacophony.

technically, there is an easy way to explain why this is the case: when a place is not as important as others, the game designers will not focus on that thing. some describe it as "gamefreak lazy as shit 😭😭😭" they are probably right.

but i will attach meaning. i am jane from real life. common belief is only belief: i can do anything. i am god. i am jane from real life, and with what we know about courtney, the empty room makes perfect sense.

on a surface level, you can attach the room with courtney's devotion and obssession. the lack of anything in this room can imply a lack of material attatchment. this can mean many things, (foreshadowing is a literary d-) but it can be interpreted in a way that communicates that courtney's obssessions with the things that fascinate her run deep enough to make her disconnect with everything else around her. an unstoppable force that tears through reality itself, screaming "nothing to me matters when you are in my mind."

you can also kind of interpet it as like. a kind of way to describe her kind of , "less-is-more, direct, yet mysterious" character in an abstract sense or something. idk. does that even make sense?

but we can go much deeper i think. if you're as absolutely off the wall as i am when it comes to intepreting anything, i think the empty room can say a lot about how courtney's own upbringing could've been like.

the lack of anything at all can imply that courtney is very used to an environment where she wasn't able to have (or just didn't have access to) much in her childhood. that scarcity was basically the norm and that she continues to perpetuate this norm because she doesnt really know what to do.

one thing that really struck me personally was how very neatly everything's placed. perfect, virtually untouched. that says a lot to me. personally, i like to think she could've had parents on the stricter side that emphasized neatness and other such things. strict parents can also kind of explain why she doesnt have much too, as stricter parents tend to kind of hold things off from their kids for one reason or another, along with other non-room things like her intelligence.

... or maybe the emptiness and tidiness is something more simple like "courtney is a minimalist" or "courtney is a neat freak." idk man do whatever with her.

but the room is fascinating. little things like this can say a lot about a character, you know. and little things like this fascinate me greatly. like dude. oh my god.

umme thatse it.

i can totally keep rambling bout other stuff though the courtney obssession is crazy.

ALRIGHTY I like it. Empty. Under stimulating. Don’t need to linger here anyways there’s work to be done.

When it came to how I wrote Kagari (trade off, this is turning into Courtney trivia trade) I actually gave her the other admin room because the file on the desk was Tabitha’s admin approval paperwork and i couldn’t understand why he’d keep that laying around if Courtney had to approve him due to her long term position in team magma

Her desk is messy much like her mind, cluttered like her busy schedule.

Courtney vs Courtney, one is aggressive vacuuming and the other is throwing balled up paper at the other so they’ll shut the damn thing off.

[morticiankisser]

How does your s/i get along with Vanessa? Are you guys very close? I'm sure she appreciates that her dad found love again 💖 @rexscanonwife

@rexscanonwife

jane hello!!!

to answer your question yes they do get along! it does take some time for my s/i to be comfortable around vanessa since she doesn’t wanna overstep any boundaries especially since she’s also someone who came from a divorced family but eventually considering my s/i spends most of her time at DEI the two eventually start getting to know one another.

i think besides Vanessa noticing how happy my s/i makes her dad even before they get together one of the things that helps the two of them get close is Vanessa finding out that my s/i has similar interests that with hers like music and movies! Her probably finding out my s/i had a goth phase in high school also helps. That and my s/i starts letting Vanessa vent to her about what’s bothering her even if it involves her dad and she listens to her and gives advice when asked!

i also like to think that after Vanessa becomes close with my s/i she joins Perry in trying to matchmake them together bc everyone can see it but them lol.

She’s never told Vanessa but she does consider her, her unofficial stepdaughter and Vanessa like you said does appreciate that her dad found love again. She just wants her dad to be happy and to her it seems like he found it

[no-more-dead-dogs]

the killerssss

[astarsystem]

Dissociative disorders are the psychological equivalent of a scar.

It is not something that anyone who truly has it ever wanted. It was not voluntary and it can be a bitter reminder of the violence that created it.

It means that a child went through pain that no child should ever go through, pain so severe that it left a permanent mark on them.

But above all else, it is evidence that the child survived. Dissociation is a safety mechanism, and a system is all the scars left behind, holding the body together and proving that they are still alive to bear it.

Our system is proof that somebody loved that child enough to keep them alive, even if that person needed to be inside their own head.

That alone is proof enough that they deserved to survive. They did not deserve to be hurt; no child does. But we deserve to survive.

We are the result of trauma. We are the evidence of survival.

[tanrak]

is it still your birthday? because HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I hope you have/had a fantastic day 🥳🎂💜

aksjsjjs yes it is, jane!! don’t worry! there’s always time for you 💕💕💕💕

thank you so much!!! have a lovely week, darling 🥰🥰

[starlightandspirits]

Hey, Coppelia! I'm feeling better now, so don't worry. I'm healing up.

[@justanormalexchangestudent]

thank goodness... i'm glad you're feeling better, truly. i'm sure i don't need to tell you to take it easy for now-- but i'll do something nice for you when you get back, okay?

[arqdyke]

happy birthday to jane @sapphicpacifism !!! may your day be as blessed as the many years to come :]

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