A one-shot story dedicated to humanity who suffers fear and pure sadness because of the unacceptable truth about death.
I know how you admire this place so much. A place where you always pick up your fresh daisies and collect it in your handwoven basket. This flower field of yours is where our story began and I still remember the scent of freshly picked flowers all over your dress and hair, and also, your signature smile that never fails to enlighten my days after it.
Right now, at this moment, you give me this nostalgia just like back in the day I first met you.
I was just roaming around in this unfamiliar place until I got lost in the middle of your flower field. I am just moved in at my grandparents' house at that time, and I decided to sneak out of the house for a while to find out if something is amusing in this place. I continue strolling around until I saw you, gracefully sitting on the ground filled with daisies, sweetly humming a calm melody, and your hair flows smoothly with the air that also gave off its a vivid color like it kisses the sun.
I silently walked towards you and crouched in front of you. As you opened your eyes, I saw a great shocked in your face.
"AHHH!! WHO ARE YOU!? DON'T MAKE A MOVE." You screamed as if I will gonna rob you.
"Ohh, My bad for scaring you, I'm lost." I said.
"Your name's lost? I think your parents' had a bad taste." She giggled as she fixed her dress.
"No, I... I mean, I am literally 'lost',and Jack is my name!" I corrected.
"I'm just kidding! By the way, I'm Elsa. I see that your are the newcomer that your grandma told me for a couple of days ago." She said.
"Okay, so my grandma never runs out of stories to tell huh. But, please, I just want to go home right now 'cuz I just sneaked out in fixing my stuffs."
"So someone's getting trouble later!" She teased.
"C'mon, just help me!" I pleaded.
"Calm down you sneaky ones, I'll help you, okay, but first, help me to pick these daisies for your grandma. And yeah, if you wanted a place for yourself you can just freely visit my flower field."
"Thank you for your warm welcoming, Elsa." I said.
After we picked up those daisies for my grandma, she guided and walked me home. I never imagine that my grandparents are really closed to her. I thought that they'll gonna sermon me, instead, they were both glad and shocked that I already known Elsa.
And also, I found out where my grandma, who is so fond of daisies, came from.
Every afternoon, we are always staying on our spot in your flower field. We eat, laugh, tell some stories, collect some flowers to be sold on the market, music jamming, and even ending up taking a nice nap wherein sometimes, grandma will gonna wake us up if she minded to visit the place.
Days... Months... To years. Two people who begin and meet up as strangers, and now, I can't believe that you are my fiance.
But, Is this a right choice?
I keep regretting myself, every day along with our joys and love, not telling you the real reason why I moved with my grandparents. You only knew that I moved because I don't have parents anymore. I also told my grandparents for a long time ago to keep my secret hidden from the world I know.
I agreed to live for the rest of my years with my grandparents, hide until it ended because of my terrible fate, yet, everything changes until you came into my hopeless life. It is all coincidental and you never failed to enlighten me. Honestly, I failed too many times in love but you are something unique and special that I've never seen to anyone.
You are the only one who enlightened my hopeless heart and soul.
And the day I feared came as I passed out in the middle of the fields while we are happily collecting some daisies. That moment, my sight slowly turns blurry and I can't even feel my body anymore. As I fell through the grounds, I saw the daisies burst out in the mid-air, suddenly, I heard your voice repeatedly calling my name... calling some help, until everything went pitch black.
As I woke up, I feel so weak, I am not even aware of what day it is, and I am just catching up on my breath. I tried to look around and I saw you, sitting beside my bed and sleeping as your head placed to your arms down to my bed, I want to call your name, but, I really can't. Luckily, you noticed me awake as you feel me moved my hands to yours. You quickly stand up and sit in front of me, you planned to call my grandparents but I stopped you because I want to let you know all my regrets before my time ends.
"Elsa, I am begging you, just listen to me."
"What is it Jack, I'm here and I can hear you." I see into your eyes how worried you are and feel it on how you pressed my hands.
"I am sorry if I'd never confessed to you about this unknown disease that makes me weaker every single day. I moved to my grandparents to hide my terrible and undesirable fate to all as I wanted to shut myself out from anyone. Yet, you came into my life. I don't blame it okay, honestly, I am glad that I met you. I know from the start that I can't keep this from you forever but I just don't want to see you and my grandparents burden the pains when I left. I'm so sorry, Elsa. I am really sorry."
"Hush, my darling and just take a deep breath. I knew it already, as I observed how clumsy you are, as to how you see the world around you, as to how those medicines were in your pockets... I knew it already, Jack. When you were carried here by our fellow villagers, your grandparents also talked to me about this and on how you shut yourself so you can't see anyone suffers. Jack, I am also glad that you are the only person who showed me the beauty of falling in love, you also gave colors to my world, and you also enlighten me to appreciate the world. You had done nothing wrong." She confessed.
"If this is the time for you to take your rest... It's okay, Jack. Don't worry too much about us." She added.
"Uhm... Elsa... Ca... Can I ask you something?" I weakly said to her. I am trying my best to catch up on some air as I still can.
"What is it?" She answered.
" I know we can't stop the time, dear. I'm sincerely sorry, but, I... I just wish to see you, smiling in front of me for the last time because this is the only thing, my last memorabilia of you, that I can take for my departure. I... I know it's hard for you to--"
You stopped me as you placed your hands on my cheeks and rubbing my tears that flow in my face. I weakly smiled at you as I felt the your gentle hands for the last time.
"I'll smile for you even you don't request it from me." She answered.
As she smiled, she can't control herself from her overflowing emotions of pain and sadness as I see her cry at the same time.
I see my grandparents for the last time trying to not interrupting us. They are just silently standing, and peeking and listening through a small gap in the door. She didn't notice them as she continuously cries out.
"It's okay to cry, Elsa." I said. I just hope that I can wipe her tears back. "Thank you for making me happy within my limited time. I'm sorry if I need to leave you so suddenly. I love you as I will be waiting for you in our next lives." I smiled, yet, everything surrounds me faded little-by-little.
"I love you 'till we meet again. Sleep now, Jack." And this is the last thing I heard.
Elsa cried so hard after I left and my grandparents open the door and approach her. Then, the room is just filled with their mourns and tears around my dead body.
Days turn to weeks that passed away quickly... I can't even tell you that my soul is still wandering around in this world because I was told to finish my last mission.
From the first, it made my mind discombobulated until I see your name flash within my memory.
"You are my last mission." I told to myself.
Even though you can't see, feel, or hear me anymore, I can still able to guide you throughout your sufferings. My soul's still alive to finish my last mission because you are still believing in me.
But history repeats itself, and now, I see myself to you who shut yourself to everyone. I can only sense your agonies, fears, and sadness all over the room. My grandparents always checked you in your home, yet, you always said that "You're fine. Just leave me alone."
What should I do? I want to accomplish this mission, but how?
I remembered that you have a sister who lives in the near village with her husband. I tried to find her, however, I still don't know what will should I do.
When night came, I planned if I can able to write and luckily I have enough strength as a soul to do it. While your sister and her husband sleeping, I tried to write a short letter that I hope it may help you.
Days later, your sister saw your letter and visit you again. She opens and enters your cabin, removed and placed her winter coat into the rack behind the door, and she goes straight to your room.
She knocks on your door but you didn't answered. She called,
"Elsa, please I know you're in there
People are asking where you've been
They say, 'have courage' and I'm trying to,
I'm right out here for you
But still, you have no response.
Anna calls you for another time,
" We only have each other
And you suddenly opened your door and let your sister enter. Both of you stand beside your window that is full of daisies. You still don't make any response and Anna seems so worried about you. But, as the moment you pick up a daisy, Anna blurted out in her soft comforting voice, "Do you want to build a snowman?" After you hear it out clearly, you cried out in front of her.
I see, You made to let out your emotions again after I left at the beginning of winter.
Tears just suddenly flow down from your eyes and your sister continues to comfort you.
"Elsa, shutting yourself and burdening it by yourself is not what Jack wanted for you right? Yesterday, I found a piece of paper hidden in our picture. Do you wanna read it. Here, take this." Anna slipped out a paper and held it to Elsa.
Elsa read it loudly that the two of them can hear...
"Love can heal a frozen heart. Both of your hearts were like your daisies: Pure, innocent, and there it lies your true love. If you had read this, remember that when you feel lost through your darkness, let your daisies enlighten you towards your true love.
P.S. I will get mad if you forget how to smile :)
Anna, protect her from me okay. I'm sorry if I can't give you some chocolates this time."
"Jack's really full of fun and suprises." Elsa giggles.
"Finally, you smiled again, I hope he can see you smile like that again." Anna frankly said.
"C'mon, I know that whenever he is, he always gonna see this smile of mine." Elsa said.
"So, do you want to build a snowman, the flower fields seems to be filled up with snow." Anna joyfully asked.
"If you insisted. Thank you, Anna." And she hugged her sister so tight and Anna also hugged her back.
Anna suddenly holds Elsa's hand and rushed out because of her excitement, they run straight to the fields and dive mountains mountain of snow.
I watched you played with your sister and build a snowman, I also tried to join your fun the last time. So, I scoop a pile of snow and form some snowballs. At first, I hit you, and it was so fun that you blame Anna just like before when I still have my body. Then, I hit your sister next that makes her revenge and rained you with her snowballs.
Finally, you set me free and I also set you free.
I know you can sense me even you can't see me anymore...
For the last time, I just wanna say thank you for believing in me for no matter what reasons, and, for now, before I take step to eternity, I want you to know that I promised myself that you are the only person I'll find and love you again through our next lives, see you soon.
"I will also find you, Jack. You are the only man that I will love again in our next lives. Thank you and see you soon." You whispered and tears started to fall to you.
Did you really reply to me, Elsa? No, it must be a coincidence.
"I can sense you there like a friend I've always known. Show yourself, I'm no longer trembling." You opened your eyes and started to see me like a dream.
I come close to you and place my head into yours.
"I see, you still believe in me no matter what." I whispered to her.
"Yes, Jack. Until eternity. Can I feel you for the last time?"
"Yes, you may, Elsa. I love you."
"I love you too." You smiled as you closed your eyes and cry.
Once I closed my eyes, I cried and at the same time I feel my soul fades little-by-little.
And for the last time, I see your smile from the day I first encountered you.
Because it is the only smile that enlightened me out of my darkness.
See you soon. I will find and love you again to our next lives.
