Anyway. KDH x unO queens is done holy shit finally.
with all three of them together you can see how the previous one looks clapped in comparison 😭 sorry rem you were my guinea pig and i forgot to flip the canvas 🙏
i gave up w/ rendering on this after the braid shchshshs
bonus chibis include:
♡ john jinu except bro is closing the honmoon for good
♡ arlo as sassy the demon bird so he wasn't left out bc i couldn't think of a saja boy to assign him
♡ darren and leilah as bobby and celine (leilah is a big fan of sera meanwhile darren is just happy his gf's happy lmfao)
♡ + sera's norigae has been vandalized (kept with the ace of spades theme despite her queenship so there were lots of As and Spades till a wild card got his hands on it)
♡ + free is so jeraphina coded i love them
these took too long and i need to actually lock in to school now so 😍 enioy!
Further Thoughts on Seraphina [and John] during unOrdinary 375 and more (Spoilers still!!!)
Part Sera (2/2)
[Previous post focusing on John]
While John has always been my favorite character, I've actually come to realize that Sera has always shared #1 position with him in my heart. For the last 10 years, I've loved watching her grow through her hardships and realize that she couldn't live ignorantly anymore in a world where the powerful hold all the influence. I especially loved episode 375 because it showed us that despite everything, Sera still remains herself while managing to find the silver lining of the batshit crazy situations she keeps finding herself in.
I am quite happy for her to be able to talk to John about how light she feels being on the run and doing everything she wants to do with John at her side. But as I reread a good chunk of unOrdinary (like I usually do), I couldn't help but worry for her anyway. Is Sera really free or is that just another lie she tells herself to cope with how stressful the last half year of her life has been since the story started? Is she okay??
[Note: half of this post is summary but I am aware that not a lot of people have read unO as much as I have so please be patient...!]
Since the start, one of Sera's core character motivation has always been the desire to be free from the oppressive role society set for her. As she mentions in 375, she's been chained down her whole life by the expectations set by her parents, school, and society; we see as much throughout the entire story of unOrdinary. Back in ep 19 she admits that she stopped living for herself because of how much other people needed her to be perfect. It's why John is able to cut straight through her misery with his own ideals during the flashback of ep 37:
John tells Sera exactly what she's wanted to hear for her whole life: that she can decide to live the way she wants because if John with "no ability" can do it, why can't she? Inspired by John's words and his support, Sera abandons almost all of her responsibilities as the strongest student in Wellston, causing Arlo to resent her for not upholding the hierarchy. She's selfish and doesn't care about what anyone thinks because she's "free," but that was only one hurdle she had to get through.
When she's suspended for a month, her mother, Narisa, takes everything away from Sera and forces her to do pointless work and study. Weaponizing her disappointment, her mother constantly compares Sera to Leilah, who had also run away from her responsibilities and had left Sera alone to be mistreated and abused even harder in her absence. Driven by fear, Sera begrudgingly listens to her mother, but she eventually has enough of the suffocating environment of her home. She thinks about John for inspiration and decides to rebel against her mother to free herself once again. She's only able to succeed because she is able to best Narisa in the very same world where power rules over everything.
By this point, Sera's freed herself from most of her responsibilities and from her parents' clutches, but she becomes entangled in a worse web once she loses her ability and the world she once ignored turns around and bites her. Becoming a zero is a big turning point for her character because the violence she experiences opens her eyes to most injustices in the world--everything was way worse than what she would see when it was only John breaking his bones and getting hurt nearly every single day. She used to laugh whenever John would get injured because he wasn't miserable as long as she was with him to lessen the pain through her presence alone, but there was only so much she could tolerate herself when she wasn't able to protect herself anymore:
The hierarchy she temporarily escaped from made her the prime target of resentful students who projected their misery onto her. She's pulled back into the mess but thrown to the bottom with the only saving grace that her previous authority provided her being the connections she had only forged out of convenience. If she had been a true zero or even a low tier, no one would've come save her from being kidnapped and tortured by a group of students. That's just how their society is: even the weaker students perpetuate the cycle of violence that the hierarchy system produced.
Again, Sera is only really able to hang on because of John's presence (do you see an ongoing trend here?), and that's why her finding out that he's Joker is so world-shattering for her. Sera admits that John was such an inspiration to her that him being powerless with her was enough to keep her going despite how hopeless everything felt:
While she does eventually realize that John meant everything he had told her initially, Sera remains trapped by her powerlessness, watches John fall deeper into despair, and loathes the fact that she can't do a thing to save him... until she decided to sacrifice her own freedom for the opportunity to do so. With what little freedom she has left after losing her ability alongside any authority she used to have, she unknowingly casts it all aside because she wants to change the world and her first step is to save John. After all, what good is a world that isn't ruled through violence and power if the one person who helped her realize that everything needed to change isn't with her?
Thankfully Sera saves John and he's able to start improving as a person, but the cost is heavy. In the month that John is gone for, Sera has to work for Spectre (specifically for Orrin) and realizes that she's trapped and suffocating once again with Terrence constantly monitoring her every move. More stress is added when she discovers that Spectre is after Blyke and Remi, and she isn't able to get the Rowden trip rescheduled for their safety. Not only is she not in control of the situation, but she's also having to hide everything from John because she'd rather him be ignorant and safe than struggling and stressed like she and Arlo are.
Of course, her efforts to keep John away from Spectre are for naught because John stubbornly refuses to leave her side. Ultimately, he ends up losing his ability to fulfill the promise he made her to protect the Safe House (which probably also made her feel guiltier about his ability loss). But John's involvement and their near-assassination only continue to fuel Sera's desire to destroy the part of Spectre that's done nothing but ruin both her and John's lives. And it's only after John destroying Orrin's ability recovery machines and Sera sending Arlo/the Bureau after Orrin that she's able to regain some more freedom. The very last thing that stands in her way of being free once again is the Bureau, who is quite unhappy that Sera had stolen their ability converter research to provide to Spectre.
John, Sera, and Arlo are all hopeful that being pardoned by the Bureau will let Sera go back to living a relatively normal life, but the Bureau has no use for high tiers that can't be tied down to them. High tiers that don't obey the Bureau either are killed (Rei), are tortured into submission (John), or are blackmailed into working for them (Jane). There is no true freedom with the Bureau because it wishes to uphold the violent status quo that continues to oppress the weak and snare the strong.
And with one final act of rebellion, Sera destroys a whole cafe full of Bureau members and discards the opportunity for false freedom Valerie offered her. Unfortunately, Sera ends up fleeing Wellston and leaving John behind once again without a support system, which does feed into his suicidal rampage at the end of season 2. When she does see him again, Sera is visibly exhausted since she hasn't taken the news of John's rampage well at all, but she still doesn't stop in her tracks because Arlo and Blyke need to be saved. And Sera is unwilling to leave anyone else behind. Not if she has anything to say about it.
So where does that ALL that leave us for what Sera says in ep 375?
She broke free from her parents' clutches in ep 51; she broke free from Wellston after being exiled in 298; and now that she's a terrorist outlaw that the Bureau wants dead, she can do whatever she wants. She isn't wrong of course--that's why John asks her why she doesn't just get up and leave now that her ability is no longer compromised. But to Sera, being able to do what she wants to do is what it really means to be free. She doesn't have to worry about what people think of her or how she's going to survive with the whole world out for her. Just like when she was powerless, having John at her side is comforting enough to help her push through all the stressful situations they now find themselves in:
'I feel like I can do just about anything if you're with me.'
John has always been Sera's main pillar of support, and he's probably the first real friend she's ever made. Now that he's back in her life and they're free to do whatever they want, her mental health has improved significantly. She doesn't have to worry about him being on his own, and he's close enough that she can protect and reassure him if need be. The fact that she admits that being with him is enough to keep her going despite everything shows that she still heavily values John, and she makes it known that she really wouldn't be here without him.
The midnight convo Jera have in ep 375 is quite a romantic scene that further strengthens their unbreakable bond. It's them against the world and as long as Sera focuses on her goals/John/whatever else is in front of her, she can do anything she puts her mind to. No one's forcing her to do anything and she's delighted to be spending every waking moment with John again, just like they used to. Sera's free enough to do anything now, so what's really stopping her at this point?
But if Sera's free to do whatever she wants, why am I worried?
To be clear, I am not worried that Seraphina or John will die by the end of the series because I don't believe either of their deaths will serve a narrative purpose or contribute to the overarching themes of the story. The thing is that Sera has always been focused on what's in front of her, which can be an active detriment to her when she neglects herself in favor of her goals. That's right...!! The very thing that's been driving her forward could very well be her biggest weakness (besides John).
Throughout the course of the story, Sera has struggled immensely to survive being a zero, help John break free from his past, and deal with every danger that poses a threat to her or her friends. While she does end up being miserable and doesn't bottle up her feelings like John does, Sera always steels her resolve to push forward no matter what. If she can focus on what's in front of her, she can take anything that's flung her way because that's all she can do. She takes things one step at a time, but she doesn't stop for anything.
Seraphina, an embodiment of her time manipulation ability, reflects the concept that time continues to march forward no matter what. She can't rewind all of her mistakes and doesn't dwell on the what-if scenarios that could pose a threat to her. Instead, she faces everything head-on and if things don't go her way, she simply forges a different path forward. But this unstoppable force of hers isn't without consequence:
Just like most high-tiers saddled with a bunch of responsibilities (much like Arlo early on), Sera would rather sacrifice herself to shoulder every single burden so that the people she cares about won't be affected. She's always been following her desires to only focus on what's in front of her with not a lot of regard to her own well-being.
In the season 2 part 1 recap, she literally admitted that she didn't care about overexerting herself if it meant that she'd be able to get through to John. Sera pushed herself to the limit to save John and ended up unconscious for a while as a consequence; she couldn't even say goodbye to him before he left for New Bostin. You know it's bad when Arlo of all people (King of being burdened by too many responsibilities) had to keep telling Sera to calm down and give herself more grace (before John got embroiled in the Spectre shit and lessened her burdens for her) :\...
And unlike John, who isn't afraid to admit that he doesn't care about himself and would always prioritize Sera anyway, Sera's self-sacrificing attitude speaks more through her actions and her unwillingness to rest. She always places an emphasis on "not having enough time" because she's only using her time to get things done--not "waste" it on herself sulking/grieving or properly taking care of herself. She forgets herself in the midst of her ambitions, and that's how she's always been even since before the start of the story.
Regardless of the consequences, Sera strides forward.
Let's see... since unOrdinary started, Seraphina has experienced suffocating responsibilities, ability loss, severe bullying, world-shattering revelations, loss of agency, assassination attempts, being branded a terrorist, leaving her life behind, and nearly losing her best friend multiple times. We've seen her at her worst during the two months she didn't have her ability for, and we've seen at least one nightmare she's had (refer to ep 245 - it's the nightmare where John loses his ability). So it's not like Sera doesn't grieve when she's given the opportunity to, but I fear she isn't giving herself enough time to process most of the traumatic events she's experiencing as a 17-year-old girl who should've been normally hanging out with her best friend. Instead she's on the run as an outlaw alongside her best friend with grand, ambitious plans to change the world and restructure society.
A good chunk of Sera's mental health undoubtedly revolves around John. If he's safe, then she's fine, but if he isn't, then she's not fine. After all, she loves him immensely and would do anything for him, especially because he's changed her life so much for the better. She's quick to pick up when John's not feeling too well, and he's also quite attentive to her when she's not feeling great either:
During the season 2 finale (ep 346), John notices the bags under Sera's eyes and wonders if she's been taking care of herself.
Of course Sera hasn't been taking care of herself!!!! How could she take care of herself knowing that he nearly died in her absence and without her knowledge until after the fact??
(So far) We don't get to see how Sera reacted to the news of John's suicidal rampage, William's death, or the fact that Arlo and Blyke were captured trying to save John. But she took the news pretty poorly because we haven't actually seen Sera with bags under her eyes since she was feeling lost and hopeless post-John-is-Joker revelation (and Uru loves to signify a character's declining mental health via eye bags/dark circles). Sera probably cried a lot and blamed herself for not being around when John needed her the most, and she must've been anxiously waiting for him to wake up after Cameron saved his life. She cries when he wakes up and rushes towards her for a hug, and she tears up again when she tells him to never throw his life away again. Sera always falls apart when John isn't with her and isn't okay.
What we do see is how Sera reacted when she thought she lost John forever. She immediately loses her composure and snaps at both Kayden and Leilah with a ferocity we frankly haven't seen since ep 20 (when John outsmarted her over a slice of Triple Choco Cake and she beat him up):
"IF [JOHN] ISN'T HERE, THEN WHAT WAS THE POINT IN ANY OF THIS?!"
When John loses William and Sera thanks the Bureau at the end of season 2, he goes on a suicidal rampage trying to take revenge on the Bureau. What do you suppose would've happened if Sera had actually lost John in either situation?
[This is why I don't believe John or Sera will die before the series ends. John, under the full belief that he'd never see her again, tried to end it all while he was blinded by grief. John would rather be dead than live in a world without Sera; Sera probably would lose most of her ambitious momentum if John died. They're incomplete without each other, so I feel like it would be too cruel to subject either of them with an insurmountable amount of sorrow no therapy could ever fix.]
Remember: Sera's scheme to steal Orrin's recovery machines was motivated by her desire to give John back his ability, not her own. Again, what's the use of being in a world without the person who showed her what it meant to truly be free? John is essential for Sera's happiness, and nearly losing him THREE separate times during season 2 part 2 must weigh on her tremendously, even if she doesn't outwardly show it. She's usually so calm and collected, but who knows, maybe she subconsciously doesn't want to be apart from John anymore because she can't stand the idea of harm befalling him if she can't get to him in time.
For now, she's grateful that John is still with her and is willing to reassure him however many times she has to. While John will always tell her how much she means to him, Sera will always show him how much he means to her. Whether it be through another sacrifice or more words of reassurance, Sera will always prioritize John over herself no matter what. She's free to do whatever she wants (for) now, so who is going to stop her from loving John in the only way she knows how to?
"As crazy as it sounds... I don't mind the way things turned out."
After everything is said and done, will Sera be okay mentally? Her calm and collected personality is backed by John's presence giving her strength (yep, even after all this time), but there has to be a limit to how much she can handle, even with John around. Her brain isn't even fully developed but she's still taking risks and calling the shots... I can't help but worry for her.
Sure, when the series ends, she will probably be truly free in a society that isn't ruled by power and senseless violence (praying really hard for a happy ending). But the mental trauma that's been accumulating since the very start of the series will surely take its toll on her the moment she has a chance to relax and her body shuts down from not being in a constant high-stress situation anymore.
I doubt we would ever get some kind of epilogue that will show how our protagonists cope with insane amounts of trauma no 17-18 year olds should be going through (idk we'll see lol), so Sera is likely safe from being trapped once more in her own mind. But it is something to think about since the burdens of restructuring society and facing off against long-standing organizations are certainly not light ones a few people can carry alone.
I suppose we'll see what else the final season has in store for her, but until then, I will pray for both her and John's happiness... together!!!
