27, what a simple exciting age. Yet, how scary for if you know much about the age of 27 you know there’s a club. A club in which most famous actors, actresses and musicians have died… What a beautiful time to reflect and look at what dying to self means. Picking up my cross and following Him. That’s a heavy thing if you really, really think about it. Dying to self sounds so simply put and beautifully profound but it’s hard. I know that dying to myself means living life with hands wide open. Open to what God has in store, whatever that looks like.
I have lived my life in fear for way too long. I have been afraid of what others think of me, I have been living in the fear that what I think of myself is what God sees and that’s pretty scary… I haven’t thought very highly of myself in a long time. That has been very evident in who I have let come into my life and dictate it.
My identity has not been in Christ, I have not for one split moment since turning 21 until about 2 and a half months before 27 seen what God sees when He looks at me.
He sees daughter, of the King, the Utmost High.
My God has not forsaken me. He loves me. He knows what is best for me. He wants what is best for me.
My last post consisted of being in a prayer season and I will continue to live in prayer season for I know my desires;
Teaching, Foster Care, Missions in a foreign land, Girls ministry, Youth & College ministry, GAP year ministry, Camp ministry, Family, Living a Minimalist Lifestyle -- THIS LIST COULD GO ON FOREVER!!!
None of it is in vain. MY GOD IS GOOD. He is BIG, and because I am made in His image my heart is big. I want to do it all but all in His good, perfect timing. There’s no rushing God but there is a need to be aware of what life looks like right now.
Where am I? Where am I going? Where am I staying? Who’s in my community? Who do I need to invite into community alongside me?
Father God, come into my life right now. Come into Bentonville, Arkansas with me. Show me what I need to be aware of right now, right where I am at currently. You know the desires of my heart. You know my love for people, but you Oh GOD, you LOVE THEM SO MUCH MORE THAN I. Praises to you forever because of that. You are a good good Father. Let me have eyes to see, and ears to listen. Give me willing hands and even more a willing heart. A heart to see and be for the people around me right now. Forever and always in your precious Son’s name, Jesus. Amen
