#jexin

[cj-doodles]

I drew some- girls- top one is Jexin and bottom one is Vix- they’re girlfriends owo;;

[raicheu]

It's difficult to see galaxies begin to detiorate towards oblivion in order to remember the awe it once was.

- do not forget // October sixth, two-thousand seventeen

[theabearr]

I really want to let him go. In the beginning, it felt so easy to get his attention and feel good about myself through a little reward system. Like if he smiled at me, my heart would beat 4 times more or if we talked, then afterwards I would think about it for hours. Now it seems like it hurts to see him and listen to him or even share things with him. I kind of want to cut it off, but will I regret it later ?

[theabearr]

I don't want to be that one clingy b I tch that can't get over him but I still like him and idrk what to do other than be a jellyfish and just float my way through it :\\\\\\\\\\

[raicheu]

When you open yourself to someone, vulnerability is a given. When you love, it will hurt. When you love, it will be happy. When you love, it will be numb. It’s excruciatingly frustrating how badly a person wants to be with someone. It’s like you’re standing on a platform at the center of the world and you witness every single heart aching act happening all at the same time. But you’ll remember. You’ll remember the scenes, the heartbreak, the love, and them. You’ll definitely remember them, because at one point or another, they were your world. They were the heart aching acts happening all the same time and all you can do is understand this. All you can do is live it.

day 2 of .

[raicheu]

I want to stop liking him cause I'm really, really scared. I don't want to get hurt or lose someone important...I also kind of just want to cut him out of my life but that's so immature of me. What do I do? What do I do...:-( I feel like my insides will burst. I don't want to get hurt...I don't want to feel this way anymore :\\

[raicheu]

Our eyes locked, and someone threw away the key.

Annie Dillard, “Living Like Weasels” (1982)

[raicheu]

you know what im probably scared of ? that after all his time, he still loves her and all i can do is lie here in the middle of the night right before dawn breaks banging my clenched fist to my forehead because i cant bare the idea that hes with her, somebody, anybody other than me. and i cry myself to sleep with the gut thought of guilt because fuck hes not even mine but i like him so much that it hurts physically, mentally, and everything in between