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[anoddrock]

Reminder: romantic love is not inherently greater than platonic love.

I always see it phrased the other way around, saying platonic love isn’t less valuable. That irks me a bit.

Believe me, both are amazing. But I Definitely feel platonic love more strongly than romantic love. If the romantic love isn’t an addon to preexisting platonic love, then personally I just don’t get it.

Because I am deeply in love with some of my friends. I forget it sometimes, and then I hang out with them and it’s just. Joy. Giddy. I’m me again. But it’s truly platonic! It’s not ‘Just Platonic’ - that’s undermining!! I legitimately feel this love to my core! It’s in my heart and soul and bones! But it just…isn’t romantic. To me, it’s much bigger, because romance is bonus content, not a standalone.

Romance fills out spaces that you didn’t know were there. It’s like having dessert. It’s connecting dots you might not have otherwise connected, but that aren’t essential to the story. It’s deciding to paint your nails this week instead of just trimming them.

I want to spend my life with the people I love, but romantic attraction isn’t its own book in my library of feelings. Romantic attraction is taking a well-worn copy of one of your favorite books, and filling it with annotations and sticky notes, double underlines and exclamation points. But the book itself isn’t romantic attraction, it’s the friendship that you have, familiar and well worn and deeply, deeply loved.

I couldn’t annotate a book I didn’t have. But I have a vast library around me full of books, and maybe I’ve tried annotating one or two, but as of right now, there’s only one book that’s felt right to have properly annotated.

But even if I’ve only annotated this one book, that doesn’t mean I’ll stop reading the others. No, I couldn’t ever stop reading. Sometimes there are new books that I end up not keeping, but there will always be a shelf of books that I could reread endlessly. The fact that I don’t annotate them doesn’t mean I don’t love them, and that they haven’t impacted me to my core. It just means I didn’t annotate them.

[jamiegeode]

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Names are Jamie, Geode, and Caiseal(KA-SHELL) and I use it/they/any pronouns!

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[jamiegeode]

I want to bite the hand of god but I think animators and sculptors are so cool and I would not hurt them that way

[jamiegeode]

Watching WALL E for the first time in forever. EEVE is a panromantic femboy think and I take no criticism

[jamiegeode]

Ok #the girls were fighting (irl) so I am not doing what I planned to do tonight but instead listening to sing street to compose myself.

And I’m thinking TOO MUCH about these songs and the movie that the musical is based on. Specifically Go Now and how that’s Brendan’s only song.

Drive it Like You Stole it *could* be considered his song. But Conor is the one who sings it. And I’m thinking like. He gave him that song and in Go Now he hid the sorrow and only showed the joy in getting his brother out of there. And in the movie, he gave Connor that song too. In the movie, it’s not Brendan’s song. It’s another gift.

Conor never hears go now from his brother. He sings it himself.

Something something the moon will sing a song for you but ten times worse to me because. He has so much joy that his brother is free despite him still being trapped. He doesn’t sit in hurt, he celebrates being left for something more.

And also in Go Now in the musical you still get that joy at Connor escaping in the movie. But it’s so different in the musical because of how it’s shaped. It’s not Brendan giving Conor all his cash and driving him and Raphina out to their grandads boat in mingled silence and laughter and then a wild joyful yell as they escape, disappearing to find their dreams, with the song he gave his brother slowly covering the sounds of the movie.

It’s his thoughts, clear and grand and said in his own voice.

So here you are

You've got another chance for life

It's what you want

I can see it in your eyes

You see so clear

It's coming into light

Go on, be wrong

'Cause tomorrow you'll be right

Just, the certainty in that. You will be right. Your risks are beautiful. Now go, before mom and dad notice.

Don't sit around and talk it over

You're running out of time

Just face ahead, no going back now

It’s not just the quiet of the car. It’s all of his well wishes that he doesn’t let out and the thoughts that played out in that quiet drive to the port.

Then the joy that builds because Conor chased his dreams instead of drowning in their impossibility like Brendan did. That joy-

You’re never gonna go if you don’t go now

You’re never gonna know if you don’t find out

You’re never turning back, never turning around

How that last line is a thing that Brendan needs to be true, because Conor’s dream can’t crash. He can’t come home because his dream fell apart. It’s too damn bright.

Go on, be wrong. Cause tomorrow, you’ll be right.

I’ve just gotta say. I’m Very Normal about how the musical emphasizes points of the movie that hit me like a thousand bricks in this song. It’s not the song playing over an ending sequence. It’s the finale itself.

[jamiegeode]

The fun thing about gender skipping around is that every so often my gender, my expression, and my body all line up, and then I’m just walking around like ‘oh what’s that? Well it’s not my fault that I’ve got great tits AND fits, so…’ and I’m right

[anoddrock]

Love characters who have no choice but to keep living. Especially if it’s against their will

[jamiegeode]

My mother has decided my favorite coat is named Roberta… no… it’s the Alex Fierro Coat...