Falling asleep on bestfriend!jj who has been hiding his crush on you for a while.
JJ eventually falls asleep with you, cuddling with you and putting his head on your neck.
When you wake up you discover him holding you tightly drooling on his chin.
You glance at your phone to discover that it's 3 am, and you need a pee. After struggling for 5 minutes, you free yourself from JJ's grasp, and you walk to the bathroom in the chateau. After you pee, you leave the bathroom to see a tired looking jj standing there.
"Agh oh god jj you scared me" you say, drying your hands on a towel.
"You left" jj says in a tired voice. You smile softly before walking back to the living room lying on the couch with your arms open.
"Cmere jay" you say as jj rushed into your arms, hugging you and falling back asleep
a/n: I wrote this for myself when I had an anxiety attack. I will get to those of you that have requested stories. I just thought I’d put this one out that help me through anxiety.
You couldn't seem to get the drops of tears to stop from falling. Wiping them harshly by yourself made you even sadder. No one was there to dry your tears. Making your problems seem huge and unbeatable on your own.
You were in a downwards spiral; and it was preventing you from relaxing. Your thoughts swarmed with the worst case scenarios. You couldn't catch your breath and you shook with anxiety. The way you would blame yourself for being so stupid. Blaming yourself for all that has happened.
You couldn't seem to drown them out this time. There was dire need for something. Something to help, something to use to cope, to get out of your own mess. Your limbs were shaking and uncomfortable.
You wrapped your hands around your forearms, almost hugging yourself, as you sat up on your bed. Your back was bent and you were sniffling every 5 seconds.
Rolling in your own turmoil, you failed to hear the faint knock at your bedroom door. The knuckles hit the wood once more a little harder the next time for you to hear.
Thinking it was your mom you gave a frustrated sigh, and clambered out of your blankets. You were ready to say "go away" or "give me space please."
You opened your door shivering. When you saw who it was you were surprised. You blinked your wet eyelashes and were met with a pair of stormy eyes. You wiped your nose onto the sleeve of your sweatshirt and asked, "What are you doing here J?"
JJ stood at the doorway looking at your red and puffy eyes and tired face. He wasn't expecting you to look so sad. Your voice that was usually music to his ears, sounded like it hurt to take a breath, let alone speak.
He originally came to see if you wanted to go surfing with the others. Now, taking in your appearance, he figured you'd want to be alone.
"Well, I figured you'd need a ride down to go surfing with the crew..." He started off strong to maybe brighten the mood. But his voice grew quieter, but more sincere. "But um If you just wanna stay here we could blow them off and just-"
"I'm not really feeling up to surfing today, maybe next time, ok?" You gave the best fake smile you could muster in your state.
JJ swiftly slid into your room and carefully shut the door. He then reached out for you.
"y/n."
You bit your lip looking down at the floor. Him calling you did have an effect on you as much as you tried to hide it.
You gazed up at him awaiting him to continue.
Gaining your eye contact he swallows, "are you really gonna make me ask what's wrong?"
That did it. You let your streams of tears that your biting back, fall.
JJ felt his heart break in his chest as he watched you cry.
"Come here." he spoke and ushered you into his embrace.
Once you reached the safety of JJ's hug, you released deep breathes as you cried a little harder into his shoulder.
When you were ready you pulled away. You stood there fiddling with your fingers before you were ready to explain.
"Um well I was at work and I made a mistake, that ruined everything. So when I came home I was already anxious and my mom and her boyfriend were fighting again and i just couldn't-"
JJ could hear the shakiness in your voice and he wanted to take you in his arms again. He hated seeing you so upset.
"hey shhhh your ok." JJ's words he spoke to you centered you a little, back to planet earth.
He saw your anxiety spike back when you were talking and he wanted to run to your rescue.
He went to you and delicately held your face.
His thumb caressed your cheek as he looked into you sad and scared eyes. His warm hands cradling your face caused you to close your eyes. That way you could focus on his touch alone.
He pressed a kiss to your forehead. As he drew back he watched your eyes open.
"Can you take me away, J" you asked softly.
"I don't wanna be here anymore, I can't handle it."
JJ simply nodded, he put his arm around you and made his way to the door.
When the two of you made it outside, after carefully sneaking past your mom and her boyfriend, you were met with JJs bike.
"Hop on sunshine." JJ asked.
He got on his bike first as you followed quickly behind him.
Once your were placed on the back of his bike JJ told you to hold on tight.
Having his permission, you clutched tightly to his torso. He kicked down and started the engine and drove off.
JJ thought about taking you down near the beach but figured it might be to crowded for you. He thought about it and figured John B wouldn't mind if you both go to the château while their out surfing.
Then he started pondering. JJ recently found out his dad was in jail. He didn't want to tell you cause he knew you would worry. You would worry so much about his well being that you would forget about yours.
He was zipping down the cut when he turned around and thought maybe just this once I'll take my girlfriend to my home. With his dad out of the picture he figured it be a safe place.
He finished ripping into the cut and you showed up at his trailer.
"My Dads gone don't worry." he said stepping off his bike and taking your hand in his.
You have never seen his house before you'd be lying to say you weren't excited. He ushered you into the door and off the porch.
You walked through the hallway with your hands interlaced. JJ quietly took you to his room.
You entered and suddenly felt overwhelmed with JJ. His room had light blue walls.
As you walked into it you saw a glass case of butterflies hung up. You looked at all the things he had on his walls, posters, pictures of palm trees, maps and photographs. It felt dreamy but very JJ.
“Can I lay on your bed?” you asked sweetly and softly.
JJ looked up an nodded, “yeah, of course.”
You laid down on your side and JJ quickly followed.
When JJ showed up next to you on his bed you immediately turned over on you back. You felt his heat and you wanted to scoot closer to his warmth.
JJ all but smiled as he laid there with you. You seemed calm and relaxed compared to about an hour ago.
As you looked up at him he slowly went to caress your cheek. You closed your eyes and breathed him in.
JJ watched a you grew drowsy.
“You can go to sleep baby. If you want to take a nap.” JJ eyes watched over you.
You hummed in response as you closed your eyes and snuggled closer to the boy.
“Thank you for saving me J.”
You eventually dosed off and JJ watched over you and kept you safe. As you were in his room with his things and his scent. You were easily sedated.
how far will you go to get your treasure? it’s not about the treasure. it’s about getting kicked into the dirt your entire life and being told you should be ashamed that your face is dirty. it’s about the payoff that never comes. it’s about pushing the boulder up the hill only for it to roll back down again. it’s about surface tension. it’s about how many times you can kick a dog before it bites. it’s about taking it into your own hands. it’s about leveling the playing field. it’s about dragging you down with me. it’s about mutually assured destruction. it’s about i will lose if it means you lose too, and in your loss i win. it’s not about even. it’s not about the treasure. it’s about burning it all to the fucking ground. it’s about the bonfire.
