prompts #38 & #54 with johnny, feeling kinda angsty but fluffy at the end? maybe smth like you've been good friends with johnny for years now and developed feelings for him, but he's too blind to see and realize his feelings so you decide to stay away from him to try and get over him.
[ 38: i don't think i've ever wanted anything this much before ] + [ 54: i can’t keep doing this ]
“i can’t keep doing this” you told jaehyun, leaving your things reluctantly on the table.
“what happened this time?”
“nothing, that’s the problem” you groaned, raising your head and resting it on your arms, looking at your friend. “i swear it’s like he’s blind. like he’s wearing this glasses that block him to realize how i act around him”
“i know the feeling” jaehyun commented distractedly and ran his fingers through your arm comfortingly. “you can’t keep going on like this”
“i know. but i can’t tell him the truth either”
“just an idea, but” he lifted his hands, you looked at him concentratedly and nodded for him to continue. “what if you, i don’t know, distance yourself from him for a bit?” he saw your expression fall and was quick to add. “only for some time, until you get over him. then you can go back to being friends. but this is hurting you, y/n”
you thought about what jaehyun had said for the rest of day. not talking to johnny wasn’t really on your wish list, but it was true that some time apart may help you get over him. it seemed like the only thing you could do, since he never caught on the hints you dropped. or maybe he just ignored them because he didn’t feel the same way.
“want to hit the ice cream parlor?” johnny came up to you when school ended. even though your whole body was screaming you to say yes, you closed your ears to it.
“sorry, i was thinking of going home and do some homework”
“oh” he said with a wide smile and kind eyes, like usual. “that’s fine”
“see you” you said quickly and almost ran away.
from that moment on, johnny was never able to get you alone. there was always an excuse, you running late to a place or having too much to study. if not, then you would simply be with jaehyun. all the time.
“do you think jaehyun is trying to hit on her?” he asked to his friends one day at lunch. seeing how you, only some tables away, laughed loudly at something the boy had said. you used to always give johnny that smile.
“dude, he's been in love with her for ages” yukhei commented, as if it was the most obvious thing ever. for johnny, it wasn't.
“he didn't need to” he said and drank some of his soda. “i think you just never seem to notice when someone is in love”
“what's that suppossed to mean?” johnny asked defensively.
time passed and the only thing johnny could do was admire you from afar. you looked happy, but he didn't understand what he had done wrong. you were his best friend, he learned so much about you and now he felt like something had been taken away from him. was jaehyun a better friend? was he not enough?
at ten's house party he saw you again. it had been too long since he saw you in an ambience other than the school corridors. you were dancing with jaehyun, beaming. johnny couldn't explain it, but when he fixed his eyes on you, you stood out more than anyone in the room. everyone seemed faded but you, who had a golden and bright emanation.
that radiance held him captive, and soon he was making his way through the living room, you blinding him with your glow while he got closer.
“y/n” you pulled away from the other boy, staring at johnny perplexedly. “can we talk?”
“she's busy, buddy” jaehyun said the name in a contemptuous voice. johnny tightened his fists.
“what if you let her answer first?”
you took quick glances to both of the guys, focusing on jaehyun's pleading eyes.
“i'll be right back” you nodded to jaehyun, disillusion all over his face as he took a step back.
you followed johnny outside, where the whole atmosphere was more toned down.
his hair was longer, and you wondered how much time it had been since you last talked.
“are you with jaehyun?” he asked, not averting his gaze from you.
“i mean, are you... dating?” the word burned in his tongue.
“no” you shook your head, almost amused by the question. “why would you think that?”
“we used to be friends too” he lowered his head, smiling at the sight of your untied shoelaces. everyday he nagged you to tie them or you would fall, but at this moment, he had missed your habits too much to care.
“you still don’t realize, do you?”
“realize what?” you sighed.
“i had to stay away from you to get over my feelings for you”
johnny's heart fell at the words.
“you never saw how in love i was with you. it hurt, johnny. being nothing more than friends”
he took a moment to take in the information, segments of your friendship flashing through his mind as it were a movie. and now he was finally reading between the lines and metaphor devices.
“did it work?” his body got closer, and yours jumped in excitement. it had been weaned off johnny for too long.
“i thought it did” you saw a small grin creeping up his face. “i'm not so sure now”
“i really want to kiss you” you almost whimpered at that, clinging into reality, scared it was all a dream.
“i know. but i don't think i've ever wanted anything this much before” he said taking one last step before your breaths mixed. he leaned in and your noses brushed, making you feel that rush you haven't felt lately. the rush only johnny made you feel.
he held to your waist and you to his shoulders, not being able to believe this finally was taking place. you honestly thought it would never happen.
“it hurt too, seeing you with him” he said after a while of your lips meeting each other, introducing themselves and what they liked.
“i'm sorry” you giggled, still sneaking in some kisses.
“you're not” he chuckled, planting another deep kiss. “i bet you enjoy knowing you made me jealous”
“maybe a bit” you teased, johnny rolling his eyes.
“now, mrs. unrequited crush” he joked and you hit his arm. “you do realize jaehyun likes you, do you?”
“what? of course not” you felt almost attacked at the statement. you would realize if he did, right?
“okay, we have too many things to work on” johnny cracked up at your expression. “but first, let me keep kissing you”
