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Make Sure What You Give Comes From Love

Is it merry Christmas Eve or happy Christmas Eve? I honestly don’t know but I’m glad the day has finally arrived. I’m not working today, at least at my regular job. Instead, I will be getting ready for a visit from “Santa” and time with my family by cooking. For the first time in a long time I won’t be making the whole holiday meal. This year, my brother’s in-laws will also be making food as we…

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You’ll Pay The Price for Being Naughty

I’m calling myself out for naughty behavior this weekend. You see, I was moving stuff back to its proper place after eating market carpets cleaned for my birthday Andy back didn’t like that. I should know better. I’ve had more than a dozen procedures to burn the nerves in my back so I can walk with limited pain. Anyway, I rested immediately after it happened but I had dinner plans for my…

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Self-confidence Makes You Feel Sexy

I’m not vain at all but I have spent the last year working on my body. I did it because last January my doctor said my leaky valve was getting louder, my blood pressure was elevated and he feared I’d have another stroke. I lived through two more than a decade ago. I figured my heart issues were due to a combination of stress, my autoimmune condition and overwhelming grief. So, I took action. I…

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Pause, Think React

When I saw this sweater for day 8 of my ugly Christmas sweater countdown, I thought times are hard for everyone whether you realize it or not. And, it literally is a fight to survive for so many due to financial, health or mental issues. It also reminded me that some of us will sink to our most basic instinct to survive at any cost. While others will not. Instead, they will opt to find a…

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Day 153: Forgive Yourself

There are 15 things left on my to do list, I thought. I’m not going to get them done before I got to the hospital on Monday. I feel like I’m running as hard I can but I’m not getting anywhere.

I’ve been using all of my energy to improve the welfare of others while masking my own deep despondency, I thought. I’ve been present and offered an ear, advice and encouragement to some people who have…

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Day 138: Acknowledge Small Kindnesses

There are days , like today, when my zest for life fades and I become despondent. This feeling doesn’t occur often and it doesn’t last for long but it happens.

Today, it was the news that my gastrointestinal surgeon will need to perform for a number of procedures and exams (4) in one day to determine why swallowing and eating solid food like toast still causes me immense pain. It was an unwelcome…

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Day 135: Don’t Let Anyone Steal Your Joy

My grandma Nettie used to say, “Don’t let anyone steal your joy. Remember, the devil is always busy.” I can honestly say this is hard to do, especially when you commute on an overcrowded train with rude people after a stressful day at work.

I’m used to venting at work. I let it be known when there is a problem with video, assignments, information. scripts or communication. I state my problem then…

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Day 135: Don’t Let Anyone Steal Your Joy

My grandma Nettie used to say, “Don’t let anyone steal your joy. Remember, the devil is always busy.”

I can honestly say this is hard to do, especially when you commute on an overcrowded train with rude people after a stressful day at work.

I’m used to venting at work. I let it be known when there is a problem with video, assignments, information. scripts or communication. I state my problem then…

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