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[kuksjshs]

[kitsch-blog1]

I’m not part of your life anymore.

There are times that I miss the way we used to be. We don’t get to talk anymore, we’re perfectly good strangers. it kills me to ignore you over and over again, but I have no choice. One year will pass soon and I haven’t accepted the truth; I’m not part of your life anymore.

[kitsch-blog1]

Honestly,

I still love you. I still care about you. I can’t move on and I still can’t completely let go of you. I can’t lie to myself. The fact that we’ve been attached for a really long time, all these memories of ours keeps on haunting me down and tears the fuck out of me. I hate you for easily giving up and looked for someone new from the moment I pushed you. I hate you for not being able to fight back when I needed you the most. But you know what I really hate? Myself, for doing that and for letting that happen. I’ve always believed that “Everything happens for a reason.” I keep on saying that to myself, no matter how hopeless things may seem to get between us two, I’m still hoping that we’ll have a happy ending, even if it’s in another realm. But in this world, this beautiful sick world I must let go of you and the other things you left behind. I know you’re happy in fact maybe even happier. The last thing I would ever do is not wanting to bother you. I wish I could say that I’m happy for you, the both of you. But that would be completely insane and weird ‘cause I’m still (kind of) head over heels in love with you. But now, everything’s different.