#just a lil cloud

[dailudannos]

@enmitypark IT FUMCKN WINDY

[disorganisedpilot]

i want to go away everywhere and stop giving in to my urges to talk all the time because i hate myself and the way i am and the way i alienate other people with this compulsive need to overshare so i want to just stop. im always over-verbalising everything to anyone who will listen to me because im scared that if i dont verbalise things and tell people things then i'll stop existing  and i dont know how to find the balance because half the time its like i dont know what's normal and then later on i hate it because i realise that was i said was a really strange thing to say and i probably made someone else want to avoid me. because verbalising things makes me feel better and helps me understand myself when i have no identity but also it makes me feel worse it makes me feel so cheap and obnoxious like i rly just open myself up all the time and idk basically im just going to let it happen like  if i stop talking and it does make me stop existing then maybe thats not such a bad thing