#just becos

[hellsbraveknight]

Continued from here // @malvive

[ text ; malik ] but that’s the thing!!!! [ text ; malik ] he wasn’t even attractive... i’m just a desperate idiot ffs!

[youlittleduckhouse]

[bugwings]

me: talks about trauma my friend: agajskd you’re going to cry about that later me: no i’m not !! me: cries about that later

[swampgoth]

i just accidentally got attached to paenis ouijya so hes my official fantroll now

[spacekidjosh]

I always pick the most inconvenient times to want to talk to people ((((liquidcargo hiiiii I'll talk to you tomorrow when I'm not going to sleep))))

[sweetsmirk]

[sweetsmirk]

131019 SMTown Beijing Sapphire Blue Ocean

[xtdinnnnh]

Just had too ..

On the day you told me it's over . I took everything you given me put into a box. I gave it to you the same day you told me "US" was no longer "us" a couple days you gave it back saying you want me to keep it. I shoved the box in my closet. Today I say by my desk & a song that we use to love came on. I had a sudden urge to look at the box. This is the 2nd time ive opened the box. But its the first that I actually looked through it. We had 2 notebooks. One red one blue. The red one was mine & the blue one was yours. We'd write everynight & every morning and throughout the day to say how we were feeling. What we were doing. Etc. Atm I didn't have my cell phone so we relied on these two notebooks. We'd write during the weekdays then trade notebooks during the weekend. The Notebooks filled full with love notes. Cute little drawings & entries. I took everythin out. Looking at every single object. I felt nothing. I looked at our pictures I felt nothing. I held your bracelet in my hand I felt nothing. I went through both notebooks I felt nothing till reading the last entries. The entries I wrote saying how much you confuse me. How much you hurt me. Me questioning why would you do this to me when I did nothing but be faithful & honest to you? Why did you make this decision? Why do you put me through the things you put me through? Why lie to me saying we'd be forever? Why? All the sadness came back just from reading that. I read YOUR entry & it made me upset. The cussing. The scribbled words. The bold words.

It used to be "I love you baby " to nothing at all. I used to be your one & only. Your wife. Your babe. Your baby.Your girlfriend. Your one. Your little love bugg. Your forever & always. Your everything. Your world. Your galaxy. Then it comes to NOW... YOUR NOTHING I'm not sad now nor happy. Idk I don't have an emotion that I can put to words. I learned from this. Time wasted. A relationship is nothing when only one person is trusting & putting their all in a relationship. & the other pays you back by ending it. Great happily ever after right? All I wanted was to make you happy but that bit me in thee ass. I did everything I could possibly do to make you happy. I changed myself so I wouldn't lose you. that'll be the last now I know that nothing lasts forever. There must be TRUST. & communication is everything. Thanks for telling & showing me what to avoid. I'm out.