#just legends

[lichtderwelt]

[hecallsmehischild]

I’ve been struggling with anger, depression, and loneliness a lot more this year. Usually that just makes the act of writing more difficult while I still WANT to write. This time it’s been undermining my desire to write at all.

I’m not giving up. I’ve been here in this dry spell a million and a half times by now and I’ve come out the other side. I absolutely will finish Laughter Lines, but I also want to give it a proper ending, and not one that I pushed out just to be done with it. I’ve spent too long on this story to screw up the ending by banging it out while I’m mad about everything, so I gotta find the pockets of time where I love the story for its own sake again. The characters deserve a proper ending, and they will get it. It’s just going to take a while.

[bastardbvby]

please why is the difference so funny

[hecallsmehischild]

859 words on Laughter Lines today. I ditched my first attempt at this chapter, it was the wrong Point of View. Now that I’ve got the right one, I’m laughing while I see how many times I can poke Mystery in the sanity.

[hecallsmehischild]

Hey. What's your favourite thing to write?

Split between these two:

“That Moment.” That Moment is a collection of disparate scenes that I get in a flash, usually many many many chapters in advance. Each of these scenes packs some emotional punch FOR ME and is a defining moment of the story (examples from Just Legends includes Kay’s sacrifice for Arthur, the moment Arthur reunites with Kay in the underworld, the cursing of Demeter, and Arthur and Kay finding out who Ginny and Gareth are). Keeping the next one of these in mind often gives me the motivation to keep writing the story because I HAVE TO SEE THIS MOMENT HAPPEN. Usually, by the time I get to those scenes, they have changed dramatically from the way I originally envisioned them (for example, my first concept of Aji attacking Arthur was going to be her singing him into a stormy sea and leaving him to drown) and usually they change for the better. But when I get to That Moment, there is a great deal of catharsis for me personally if the scene goes well. I’m currently eyeballing, as my upcoming moments, Arthur meeting Shiro Mori, and what is happening when Ginny and Gareth return to their proper time.

Catharsis. When any and all angst and torment the characters have gone through is soothed and healed and filled to overflowing with all the good they should have gotten. The moment of luxurious rest, peace, joy. The times that permanently fortify the character moving forward, as they rebuild every part of them that was broken down. Sometimes overlaps with “That Moment” but not always.

[hecallsmehischild]

It always smacks me upside the head when my writing informs me of the state of my psyche, whether by parallel or by depicting things I wish were true but know to be false. Drafting a longer-than-usual Author note for the next chapter, partly in response to realizations about the last chapter.

[hecallsmehischild]

Funny thing. So, working on this scene where Vivi is supposed to let Mystery really have it? She totally did. And after I wrote that scene and finished feeling immensely satisfied, something told me I’d just shattered any potential trust they could have built in the future. On top of that, Vivi regressed as a character, and she doesn’t HAVE to at this point. And the whole scene made me feel a little sick and sad.

Let’s just say, I’m feeling the rewrite of this scene a lot more.