#just... fuck

[homebody-nobody]

there's this private school near me and my mom told me they're looking for an upper-level math teacher and to work in private schools you don't need a teaching license and I learned while I was in Washington last month that my cousin works as a high school math teacher in Vermont (with an engineering degree and no teaching license) and I just wrote a cover letter and sent them all my documents and an expression of interest and literally my hands were shaking cause I want this so bad

their school year starts in a month so I am hoping they are desperate enough to hire a 27 year old with no teaching experience or license or education degree

[thereschocolateonmykeyboard]

I'm reading Salt Houses by Hala Alyan right now, and I wanted to look up where exactly Kuwait city is, because my geography knowledge for that area is... almost non-existent. So anyways, that led me to g**gle maps, and the satellite map, and to Isr*el, and to Gaza, and... it's just fucking insane to me. You can see the destruction (not all of it, the images seem to not be super recent) all over Gaza. There are places where the satellite image is kind of hazy, presumably from dust or smoke. I've never seen that before, anywhere that isn't like... a massive construction site. And just to reiterate: This is g**gle maps. It's public information. How anyone can have access to that and still argue about "right to defend" and "release the hostages" as if that has anything whatsoever to do with what Isr*el is doing is seriously beyond me.

[impeartorachilles]

Oh hey look I'm alive..yaaaaay *flop*

[ineffablepretzel]

I follow my young niece on tiktok, and the clips she's been reposting absolutely break my heart. They're all the same theme really.

They're all about the marginalised groups who are in danger of having their rights taken away in the US.

She's posting about lgbtqia+ rights, about abortion rights, about systemic racism. About how it doesn't matter how qualified you are as a woman, you will always be ranked below the worst man. About how there won't be a female president in her lifetime.

She's 14. I fought so hard in my life. I thought things would be better. I thought she wouldn't have to fight the same battles I did.

She's 14, and she has just learned that people would rather see a goddamn racist misogynistic rapist in charge than a woman.

Fuck

[mentallyundone]

I am a safe person, I have a safe home. I won't turn you in, I will support you however I can. I'm a rock in the seas of uncertainty.

You aren't alone.

[autoserketphilia]

My grandfather passed away this morning and we're gonna have to like, road trip up for 18 hours tomorrow for the funeral/to help out. Fuck. I really don't know how to feel.

[frogblast-the-ventcore]

I feel like... I don't know, I feel like all the very fun and interesting conversations between my friends happen once I'm gone. Once I'm asleep. Once I'm not in the room.

My brain is just like "they hate you, and they're all waiting for you to be gone to talk to their real friends, and probably saying 'finally that idiot is gone'".

I'm rational enough to know that probably isn't true.

But somedays, man. I wake up, I see everything they talked about while I wasn't there and I just kick myself.

Cuz I could've been there. And I wasn't. But I want be.

I doubt anyone will see this. I almost hope they don't. It feels like I'm complaining for no reason.