There are days where my mental health is bad for no discernible reason and then there are days where there are just infinite reasons my mental health is bad. Not sure which is worse.

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There are days where my mental health is bad for no discernible reason and then there are days where there are just infinite reasons my mental health is bad. Not sure which is worse.
a new dream
so today i ended up going to this cute bookshop (after i got pie ayeeee) and it was so cozy and wonderful. it was one of the places that was just a nook in the wall but it had like three levels and tiny stairs that lead to each place and i was chilling upstairs and was petting a cat :3 I PET A CAT TODAY AND THEY LIKED ME AND I FEEL SO HONORED AND HAPPY AHHHHH!!!!!
anyways~ this experience + something i read a while ago kind of inspired me to add another dream for my future. in addition to boston + pets + farmer’s markets + food + traveling, i also want to open a bookshop/cafe one day. just a little cozy place filled with magnificent books with comforting stories. and i read a post a while ago about how there’s not really any exclusive safe spaces for lgbtq+ youth that they can go to... so i was thinking i could make my bookshop something like that. have lgbtq+ friendly literature and make sure there’s plenty of information that they can access in the safe space you know? like the importance of safe sex they don’t teach you in health classes and the broad spectrum of gender and sexuality and the process of discovering your own. i feel like this is super duper important. i’d also want to keep it open really late into the night as well so there’s a safe space for all those night owls to go besides seedy bars and stuff.
i feel like this is a really really good dream to have and i’m super excited about it already. it warmed my heart so much to think of all the things i wanted to include in it while i was driving home. like i already know that bubby, lola, and sparkles will be roaming the place for ppl to pet them (bubby would be a lazy butt and be settled on my lap while i do grad school hw stuff) and i’d probably organize books like fanfics so there’d be genres like fluff/angst/romance just bc sometimes ppl don’t always know what they’re looking for but they know how they want to feel when they read something... and themes like that, yea? and maybe if the space is big enough then i could set up a little movie theater type of area (just a screen + projector + bean bags) and play movies so ppl can just sit back and relax at night too.
i don’t know when i’d open it... it’ll probably take a lot of time especially because i still want to be a clinical technologist and go to grad school and hopefully become the manager of a lab hospital some day... but... i think i can still achieve all these dreams, ya know? like there’s so much time and i still just want to live a simple life so i think i would be able to save up money for this kind of thing one day.
i’m really excited about it! :D
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