#just...ignore this

[lisigh]

According to my Facebook memories I started high school 6 years ago.It’s crazy to think about how much I have changed from then. I used to be this angry emo kid to this less angry young adult. I am so much more comfortable with my sexuality and its fluidity. I had my first girlfriend,which was my first serious relationship too,to being a little hoe after a break up. Where I learned casual sex is just not for me. I’m so much happier from what I used to be. I used to be very depressed and suicidal,and yeah I do have my days where it feels like I’m 16 again,but I learned how to reach out and get the help I need.I also learned that the people i thought would be my friends for the rest of my life aren’t healthy for you and you’re gonna have to cut them off to be happy.And that’s okay. I also started to love my culture so much more. Im proud to say I’m Mexican. I also started enjoying things without caring what others would say and started living for myself.

But here I am,20 years old.Starting my third year of college next week.I have no idea what I’m going to do after I graduate but I’m getting comfortable with that.I got some ideas but I’m going to have to start working hard for those dreams.I have a boyfriend that I love so much and family members that care so much for me.Last year I was scared transferring to my school because I have trouble making friends.But I was blessed with two amazing roommates,my caring RA and meeting people in Pride and meeting Michael and then meeting my group of friends last semester.I might not have found my home away from home at a sorority-well at least not official yet but I got my eyes set on making it official spring semester for sure though not dropping out this time lmao-but I did with my spring semester therapy group.I now go to TWU knowing people,my roommate is a good friend of mine.I am so much calmer. 

I have learned so much since I was 14 years old but I’m still learning

[lz-01]

i think we’re about to find out just how much of bts is actually bts and how much is the company,,,,,cuz i saw that teaser n swore up and down it was a bts teaser, the aesthetic style is exactly what i’ve come to expect from them. 

i even thought to myself it makes perfect sense bcuz bts has said before that army is like the moon, they reflect bts across the globe and allow them to reach new audiences. so i was like “oh yes, sun, eclipse, eclipse is when moon blocks the sun, yes, yes, this makes sense.” 

but apparently...it’s for an entirely new group? which is??? not to be That Way, but i hope bighit doesn’t plan on trying to market them as a new bts

[feathered-angel]

Why does everything have to go to hell rn? Why is my family si shitty? Why did I just ruin my mom's birthday? Why can't i just disappear for good?

[sadyanandstuff]

Am I Worth Anything To My Family?

My mother called me stupid and chose her (now ex) husband over me, so I went with my siblings to live with my dad. My father tells me things in a way where I feel like he never wanted me in the first place. And so I feel like I'm not worth anything to them and that hurts. Because at times I want to be held by kind warm arms, to rocked back and forth. I want someone to brush my hair to the side, press their lips in a maternally affectionate way and tell me that their proud of me for fighting to stay alive. My brother at times thinks I'm a bitch because I act distant when stressed out from all the acting grown up. He's childish, and that's what I envy, because he has the imagination of a child but the skills of an adult. My little sister calls me stupid because I try to tell her to do things, because I want her to mature just a bit more, so I can look at her and think she's achieved so much and that the world never knew what hit them. And I try my hardest to work hard so I can get a good career and be able to buy them something for their birthday. I get tired and stressed juggling all those responsibilities that my head just wants to stop thinking. I have to act like all those names they called or all those things they say don't hurt. And that I don't regret everything I have ever said back to them in anger, when in reality, I want to write a thousands of pages on every way I can say I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't do certain things because I'm too busy worrying about the future. I'm sorry I act all distant and quiet after a bad day, then don't tell you about it. I'm sorry I called you names out of frustration. But it's hard. It's hard to stand up tall and say it's okay when you​ hear those things. It's hard to say I'm fine when I want to hide in my blankets and never come out. It's hard to hear that I am a problem because of the way I act because then I think I was made wrong, with the wrong parts borrowed from the wrong places. That I was not how you want or wish me to be and I'm sorry about that. It's just hard to make me believe I'm worth anything when I'm put down. I'm sorry I wasn't made with good parts.

[fairyroses]

when ur phone tells you that an email didn’t send so you send it again only to check your sent box and find out that the first email did, in fact, send, so now you’ve sent the same email twice and deep down you know it’s not a big deal but u still lowkey feel like dyin

[performanceleaderhoshi]

I'm just...I don't even know I thought I was actually having a good day today but now I just feel awful at this point I never know how a days gonna turn out for me the only friend I ever keep in touch with is finally getting his life together meanwhile everything gets more and more worse for me each day and I hinted that I wanna see him when he comes back into town and he didn't even seem to care and it's been about a year since my dog passed away and I just wanna hug him and I'm just trying not to break down in front of my family again

[seventhstar]

i dont even understand the existence of romantic vector ships that arent lies perpetuated by vector for evil or props for implausible nsfw plotlines 

what does vector have to do before people will stop bending over backwards to ignore all the evil shit that makes up his entire characterization