feeling really lonely and alone.feeling down and cruddy.feeling like a failure and a terrible excuse for a daughter/human.feeling very stupid, pitiful, and gross.feeling like i shouldn't have been created.feeling like i only cause messes.feeling like a mess.feeling unworthy and undeserving of anything and everything.feeling like i need to rid myself of anything and everything.hard to express myself. hard to get the point across. hard to open my mouth and not sound like a fool. a stupid, stupid, stupid, fool. foul and evil. atrocious and rude. so rude and ungrateful. i am not grateful. i'm greedy and mean. greedy and inconsiderate. greedy and disgusting. stupid and disgusting. foul mouthed lardy loser. you're such a joke. pathetic and undeserving. i do deserve the worst kind of pain. i am a shame. i must learn to not open my mouth. i am a terrible, terrible, listener. i never listen well. i need to shut up. i have nothing of value. no one asks. so stop talking. it's so unbecoming. just rambling on...just like you're doing now. stop feeling sorry for yourself. you know it's true, you're not half the person you could or should be. lazy, egotistical, tacky, cheap, fuck. you disgust others. you smell terrible, your teeth are yellow and big, your skin tired and lifeless..same goes for your black and blue baggy eyes. real nice. stay away from others. NO ONE wants you around and if you are around...don't fucking speak..you're not valuable. you're nothing. so just STOP fantasizing like you are because wake the fuck up. scummy twat.