sulking in the mirror
pairing : han jisung x blackfem!reader
warnings : insecurity, skin talk, crying, kisses, pet names (sweetie, sungie, hannie), talk of sex at the end.
a/n : this is literally just a blurb i wrote on my phone late at night. again, sorry for the wait of the maknae line, i don’t have my laptop at the moment.
NOT PROOFREAD!!
back to library .
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you sat on your bathroom counter, looking and feeling like shit. staring back at you was you with acne filled skin, your bonnet on your head and curl or two coming out of it. your acne flared up again. and this time it was like it had gotten worse—it was red and angry.
it bloomed across your forehead and cheeks, and there was no way in hell that you were taking photos of yourself or with han; not until it went away or you were able to cover it up with makeup. staring into the mirror, you couldn’t help but think, ‘why did this have to happen to me?’.
han had noticed that you didn’t wanna take pictures or go out as much as usual. he found you constantly on your found, looking on instagram or tiktok at people with flawless skin.
“whatcha up to y/n?”
“nothing.”
you hadn’t meant to sound as cold and rude as you just did—it just spilled out. han took it with a grain of salt, but still gave you your space, figuring you just weren’t in the mood.
but it was when he saw you, sitting at the vanity he bought you, sulking and picking at your beautiful skin.
he approached you, and gently took your wrists away from your face, catching your gaze.
“y/n don’t do that. you’re beautiful with your acne too.”
“im not hannie. i look so disgusting and ugly with it, i hate it when this happens.”
tears welled in your eyes as you vented,
“i just don’t understand why my skin couldn’t just be like yours, just perfect and no acne. i don’t even know why you bother.”
now, hot tears rolled down your cheeks.
he grabbed your cheeks in his hands and spoke,
“look at me. you’re not disgusting or ugly. you’re absolutely beautiful—acne or not. it doesn’t make you any less to me, still the same beautiful woman i fell in love with.”
he slowly sank to his knees, his hands grasping yours as he kissed them.
“and if you want, we always look at things to help clear it, or go to a dermatologist..?”
the tears still continued on, but it had felt like a weight had been lifted off your chest. you still didn’t feel the best, but the reassurance helped.
“thank you. thank you so much sungie.”
“you’re welcome sweetie, now open your legs and lay back so i can show you just how beautiful you are.”
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a/n : to whoever has acne and is ashamed or insecure about it, don’t be! you’re beautiful or handsome :) don’t forget it<3
