#kabbyoza

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Abby "fuck the police" Griffin is so extra, that her love interests are Marcus Kane, a Ark guard, Charmaine Diyoza, a retired Navy SEAL, and Jake Griffin, who looks like a classic superhero!!!!

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Charmaine Diyoza and Loss | The 100

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I watched last week’s episode of the 100, 7x07, and while I didn’t find it particularly interesting and it was one of my least favorites... But the Hope and Diyoza scenes was the best sequence of scenes I’ve ever seen in this show, as an exploration of both these characters and their relationship.

Continue reading for an exploration of those points but also with a touch of kabbyoza feels (because I have a brand to live by :D )

First the guilt in Diyoza’s face is so clear, the entire pain of losing her child’s upbringing, to have missed most of her growing up is heartbreaking, but then this reminder that she still has time, but also has to figure out a new way to do it. I feel Diyoza was always fearful of what type of mom she would be, and she was thrown the biggest challenge, and I feel there’s this sense of failure in her that she had t be saved. Diyoza has been saving herself for a long time, she let Marcus and Abby save her but not many else, and now her daughter is the person to save her, the person who she’s suppose to protect.

But then you also have the reminder of how young Hope is, this girl who’s heard about her mom’s fighting nature, but hadn’t seen it, the way she freezes as she explains how she killed a man. Even the way she says she’s 25 is so young, and then standing up her body like wanting to show that she’s all grown - you have Hope here do what Clarke did a lot with Abby, this way that their characters look and act younger. But there’s also the way Hope says she turned a killer like her mom, but her killings are nothing alike, when Diyoza has probably killed in the hundreds, and Hope killed to protect herself.

Diyoza being so scared of what her daughter knows, that she will see her as a monster - the way it broke her heart when she realized Sanctum saw her as that or that she was becoming a dictator at Marcus’ eyes - how people see her matters to her always, but that matters from no one more than from Hope. There’s this beautiful smile at the brightness in Hope’s eyes as she talks about her mom, and then realizing the truth of what Gabriel said.

“Doing the right thing the wrong way is not doing the right thing. I know that now” - this being something Marcus showed her, that he insisted she understood, even the way they both fucked up at the end of s5 (with out of character decisions!!) changed her. Especially as the notion comes it was all for nothing, Earth still exploded twice.

Back to young Hope is her excitement at hearing about her dad, her entire face lifts up as child, she breaks this serious/adult person to a kid who misses her parents. And the way it breaks learning the truth, the way she tries to keep herself from crying, probably a childhood making up stories to be all brought down by a truth that hurts her.

“Everyone I’ve ever loved was killed fighting in wars, some that didn’t need to be fought” - I know she probably doesn’t know about Marcus and Abby, but this is the entire story of them dying, they are two more people going into the list of people she lost in wars that could have been stopped.

And then their fighting scene was so GOOD!!! The way they seriously go at it, the way Hope is both scared and realizing the truth of who her mother is and how good she is, and finally realizing that she has not learned too much

“We lost too much already.” this is not just the perfect line for Hope and Diyoza, but also for Diyoza, for a person who lost her entire way of life going to jail and coming back to a changed Earth, to someone who lost her father and family, to someone who tried to build something getting to Earth and lost that, and the people who helped her, and finally, the last straw, someone who was robbed of 15 years with her daughter. Things were taken from her over and over again, and this is the call for her to not let it happen again, especially with her final promise, which scares me of what she will do...

On Hope in this same scene, the way she breaks down is heartbreaking, the way they care for one another, the way they missed each other and everything. The way Hope finally allows herself to openly be a child of someone, not just the glimpses, but going back to the moment she was left there, afraid and not knowing what’s happening.

Also finally the performances from Ivana Milicevic and Shely Flannery were spectacular!!! I’ve always said that of Ivana who can always say so much with just her face, she makes this slight face changes that tell an entire story, and that brought something else out in Shelby!!! They complemented each other so well - they had this great chemistry and familiarity with one another, and I really hope we continue to have the two of them acting together!!!

Besides these scenes, I just wanted to also shot out the ending - it also really worked for me, even having been spoiled, it still built up the scene so well and I was so excited to see and finally meet Cadogan!!! Just Lindsey Morgan’s directing was really good, not just in that scene, but the transitions also stood up to me :D

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I watched The 100 episode earlier this week and it was so GOOD!!! Probably somewhere close to my top, but not reaching the level of my two favorites... 

I LOVED the flashbacks part so much, I LOVE getting to see Diyoza being happy, and Hope was so sweet and cute, and LOVED Octavia as well. I did cry a few times over kabbyoza feels... The fact that Abby and Marcus were not there hurts my mind, the way Diyoza was afraid to do it alone, just made me think how it was this unsaid thing that they were gonna do it together... but then also her smile is the same she had in Eden when Octavia tells her to think of something happy :)

I LOVE how their family calls back to who Octavia and Diyoza are and were growing through their lives, the modernity of Diyoza and her knowledge - LOVE that Hope responds to things with “copy that” and the conversation about veganism and these classic foods like “fish and chips” or meatloaf - and then Octavia’s stories, which I feel included more than the characters mentioned by word, and I hope they talked about Marcus and Abby, and then I love that Octavia is the one who teaches sewing, since that was something probably taught to her by her mom!!!

Also even with all this, it’s very interesting that Hope didn’t learn to fight from them... especially since the moves she used on Echo reminded me so much of the Diyoza and McCreary fight, and even the heartfelt fight between Diyoza and Octavia in this episode.

Now even if I LOVED all the flashbacks, I wasn’t really a fan of all the present storyline, it’s too much scifi, that I’m not that particularly curious about. I really like the dynamic between Hope and Echo, and Gabriel’s fascination is such a good character trait (even if I’m not that interested in the topic). 

EDIT: I was listening to a podcast - @theafictionados, check them out!! - and remembered why I was also not a fan of this storyline, it reminded me of s4 (my least favorite), since everything they tried just kept failing - it’s not only disappointing, but also feels so much like a filler and just like it will go nowhere... (edit 2: just coming in to say that I added this before they said this exact thing on the podcast - just got to that part. When they started talking about the present storyline I just remembered this info and decided to add)

 So I’m not such a fan of either the Sanctum or the present time anomaly storyline, which is not great looking into the season, so I really hope the show keeps the domestic moments, the highlights for me were the Diyoza, Hope and Octavia family times here, and the Gaia, Clarke and Madi family in episode 1 :) I hope they keep finding the time to put in these character moments :D

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Hope Diyoza, Marcus Kane & Paxton McCreary || The 100 

Modern AU: Marcus, one of her mom’s partners (the other being Abby), starts teaching Hope how to play guitar when she’s young. Years later when her biological dad, Paxton “Graveyard” McCreary, gets out of jail, music brings them together.

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Happy Birthday, @xv12!!!!

Noemi, you’re one of the sweetest, caring and smartest people I know, and I’m forever grateful that reading Princess Clèves on my second week of college brought us closer, and now it’s been quite a few years!!!!

I really hope you’re having a good day, celebrating with your loved ones and with great food!!! I hope next year is a good one and treats you with all you deserve, and less chaotic as this one!!! And hopefully we’ll actually get to meet :D

This year I didn’t have the brain or time to bring you some Ned and Catelyn, but I bring you a small chapter as I reimagine this last season of the 100 still taking place on Earth, which I thought you would appreciate more than the Sanctum craziness :) The link is here and I truly hope you enjoy it!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! 🎉🎉🎉 And May your birthday be GREAT!!!!!

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Abby Griffin, Charmaine Diyoza and Marcus Kane | Kabbyoza | The 100

After the the fires of Sanctum, Abby, Marcus and Charmaine share some JoJuice and try some other drinks (aka how I thought s6 was gonna end )

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I made a similar post more than a year ago about the 100 premiere, how s6 was the first premiere I went on while being active in the fandom, and while that’s true this year too... Now it’s a completely different premiere, my heart hurts and I’m scared, I’m terrified and hope is a small thing for this show, even as I try to stay positive

My excitement changes often... UD back in January made me excited for Hope a lot, and I’m prepared to hopefully love her!!!! Especially since I’ve been thinking of her for more than a year and a half and she’s been essential to my journey in the fandom!!!! Then with the teaser promo, it just made me so happy to see Diyoza again - this joy and hopefulness filled my heart!!! And then the actual trailer came out, and that excitement died down... the possibility of Diyoza dying too is more real than ever before, and hearing Abby’s voice, seeing her rings being buried, hurt too much... made me cry for next half an hour... (and Hope not being shown with Diyoza did not help, while I want to love her, that’s easier when she’s with people I love ...) So the trailer left me in a weird place...

I’m going back to this season weak and scared, trying to hope for the best, but afraid that this show will break so many of my friends’ hearts, with killing their faves or leaving them with unsatisfying end, and for me I’m afraid that Diyoza will die - a character that for the last two years has not only been a source of happiness but also an inspiration, someone who’s made me braver and stronger, who gave me the strength to speak up and be more myself.

I think back to a time where the show was just another show, and I watched for kabby only (now with no kabby...), I’ll try to go back to that. I’m watching the season with my dad, because I really don’t wanna go through this alone, having my dad there will make things easier, and reminding him who the characters are will be a good distraction...

So on Monday, when it comes out on netflix here, I’ll have to say goodbye to the denial I’ve been living. The multiple fics set in an imaginary s7 will stop being real in my mind... this entire post may feel stupid to most, but if you’ve ever loved a character or a ship this much, it will make sense, Kabbyoza brought too much to me, and Abby and Marcus were central parts of that ship and amazing characters on their own - strong and caring.