Finally got to see pain management yesterday, and I'm so, so frustrated. My doc doesn't think fibromyalgia is real, doesn't believe opioids are an option for pain (they're just a bandage) and ordered a drug test because worst of all, he thinks I'm drug seeking.
He apparently also added no notes on my appointment, so neither I or my other providers have any information on his thoughts and plan for care. The one thing he did add is "long term drug use" under my diagnoses.
I want to scream. I've cried more than once. I just want to be able to leave my bed. I want to be able to feel like a person and while other medications have gradually helped in the long run, opioids are the only thing that take the pain away and let me live my life.
I have no history or signs of addiction, which is very much corroborated by other providers. He just decided that I do because he thinks I'm lying. I want to scream.
I feel like I'm free-falling into depression again. I'm hopeless and lost. Where do I go now?