My sweet, sweet bunny. What happened to us? We went from being so happy, so perfect, living the kind of love that's only set in movies and fairytales. I made a mistake. There, I said it. I made a mistake--and it's one that I know I will regret for the rest of my life. When I look at you now, I don't see the happy virus that I fell in love with. In fact, I see someone that harbours so much hurt, so much pain that I know I was the reason behind. A million pleas of apologies won't sew up the heart I broke, but I won't stop trying until you can look at me with love and trust again. Believe me when I say that I love you--I always did and I always will.
I'm not sure where we're standing in our relationship right now, but I'm sure of my love. No matter how far you push me away, no matter how difficult things get, no matter how distanced from me you make yourself... I will continue fighting until the day you tell me that you fell out of love with me. If you can still look me in the eye and say I love you with even just an ounce of feeling, then I'm going to keep fighting for your your heart--for our love. With due time, we'll heal the hearts we have broken and I know we'll only come out stronger.
My red panda, my black bunny, my black kitty, my everything--you're the star in my sky that shines brighter than most, the light at the end of my seemingly dark tunnel, the one thing in my life that's worth holding on to. When I lost everything else, you were the only one I had. I have no right to say this but, don't give up on us. I haven't yet--and I won't give up on you.
I love you, Park Chanyeol. I have made many mistakes in my life but I will never make the mistake of falling in love with you.
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I told you this before, and I’m not sure if you could still remember it but—I promised to give you all the happiness you deserve, remember?
The bucket list, I told you to get it done by the end of the week but I’m not yet done with mine—I haven’t even started it yet. The things that I told you were just the things that I randomly came up with but I swear, I will try to do it when I have the time or simply when I find the heart to stop thinking about your smile first.
So, we have made it, didn’t we? Even if it is just a month, you don’t know how happy I feel right this moment, especially that we’ve lasted a month together without giving up—I’m sure we will last forever. We often ask each other about how we end up like this after that first night. Whenever I think about it, my reaction would still be the same; my cheeks would heat up, my mind would be filled with your beautiful smile, butterflies would start invading my stomach until I find myself clutching on it as if trying to get them all out and with that same old warm smile which made you fall in love with me. That night, that night when we met was the best night of my life, not just because I met you but because you made me feel different from all of the people I’ve met before. You don’t see me as the Happy Virus Chanyeol, but you saw the real me.
I often catch myself thinking about you and smile unconsciously whenever I do. You have put a large rock on top of my head and I can’t push it off, it’s like you trapped to where I am and this is where I will stay; in your arms, with your warmth and love. I would never want to go anywhere though; I want to be with you, just you and no one else.
Happy one month, baby. I’m looking forward to spend the second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth until we reach our first year, the second, third to forever.
We fought a lot these past few days and I can say that it made me love you even more, if that’s still possible ‘cause I love you so much already. I can still remember the way you said that your heart is as cold as ice and that you will never, ever fall in love with me, I can say that you’ve really tried your best to stay away from me so you wouldn’t let your walls break yet again and fall in love but I’m too handsome to resist, aren’t I? Kidding, but seriously babe, I love you and I don’t think I’d ever want to stop loving you.
I need to say sorry now, if I ever were difficult in a way that you’d scratch your head irritably just to know what I think. It has always been like that but I’m trying, okay? Like you, I’ll try to let my feelings out the way it needs to be, I don’t want to be vulnerable in your eyes again. Speaking of eyes, have I ever told you that I love looking and getting lost in your eyes? I love it, I love it whenever lock my gaze on you and all I can see is my handsome face, I like how I still look so handsome whenever I look at you.
You got insecure the other day ‘cause of your nightmare and I want to assure you that you’re the one I love and I would never want to love someone else. Babe, you know how tough long lasting relationships would be and I want us to last, like what we promised each other when you took my hand in that Ferris wheel on that same day you took my heart away. We’ve been into numerous fights but it’s nice to know that by the end of the day we make up with each other, this is the best thing about us as far as I’m concerned; we never pass a single fight without knowing our mistakes which makes us stronger. I may want to kill you sometimes whenever you get too cranky especially whenever you don’t get enough sleep but I can’t knowing that I won’t see your adorable face anymore.
I love you, I always say how those three words have my life in them and now you own it. Don’t get me wrong, but I love knowing that we’re both committed to each other. It makes me put a lot of faith in us, in you, especially you that you won’t hurt me, that you would never get tired of me, that you won’t try and find someone else and that we will make it through—together, forever. I may not be your night in a shining armor but I’m your Chanyeol. Your little Bunnybunbun, your chipmunk, your red panda, your brown husky, and I’m sure that you’ll agree that I’m your everything.
I solemnly swear that I am not up to no good—wait, that’s from Harry Potter. I solemnly swear that I will love you, I will cherish you, I will make you understand whatever it is that’s running inside my mind and I promise never to give up on us. I will understand you; I will try to understand you more, and probably be the best boyfriend you’ll ever have.
By the way, let’s go to the park, watch the stars and fall in love again.
