analysing the lyrics of passion at 25:00 (from kana4- the way i played that day)
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The memory of that train station's platform that vanished one day,
And the companions I made with my burning ambition,
Someday, they'll become the sea, the sky and other human beings,
And there will be a day when I long for the passion at 25:00.
“memory of that train station's platform” refers to the happiness she felt in the past. being able to truly feel her parents’ love, and composing out of genuine passion
the train station could symbolise something that was meant to leave, that can't stay with her forever, just like how a train must eventually depart
but she's found happiness in nightcord through her pain. happiness reminiscent of the train that left. regardless, one day her members will have to go too, and she will once again long for the passion they helped her reignite.
joy is truly tied to sorrow here, as she still chooses to love her members even though they will eventually leave one day.
The desk full of scratches that I pressed my face against,
The smell lingered after school and the coldness of the chimes,
The gentleness of love and heaviness of sorrow,
We are created using all of those things on this night.
this talks about how sorrow and love shape who we are. even though its painful to recount the memories and it feels unbearable to deal with lingering trauma, it's contrasted against the “gentleness of love”.
kanade is who she is today because of the happiness and sadness in her life. they can't be taken away without tearing her apart.
in kana4 she learns to wholeheartedly accept her happiness that is tainted with sorrow, and despite the pain she can still smile, because she's slowly rediscovering the parts of herself she suppressed.
I'm sure that you'll understand it when you grow up,
The youth we were allowed to be.
I'm sure that you'll cling onto it when you grow up,
The memories of that one night.
you can interpret this as kanade speaking to her younger self, once so innocent and pure hearted. that part of her never expected that her happiest memories would turn bittersweet. she'd never imagine just how much she would miss the love her parents had given her, how she could accept it without any guilt in the past.
"I long for you, I adore you," Those words and the song on this night,
I wonder, will they smolder in the depths of my heart someday?
Will I be able to love this happiness completely and earnestly?
Will I be able to save you completely and properly?
kanade looks back on her past and longs for it, loves it. she hopes that her memories will never fade with time, and she can accept the happiness from it without thinking she doesn't deserve it.
she also wonders if she can truly save mafuyu out of her own kindness, instead of the ego she held in the early story.
this could show kanade's fear to move on. that if she allows herself to be happier and start composing out of passion instead of obligation, can she still save mafuyu?
is her will to see mafuyu happy and to be happy herself, enough to save her? she really hopes so.
The world is shining, don't forget that.
The world is squirming, don't forget that too.
You aren't alone in the world, don't forget that as well.
And make sure to not forget your own passion.
kanade tries to suppress her memories because she feels like she doesn't deserve to experience the happiness she had, and because they're simply too painful to look back on, knowing they'll be lost forever.
however, this reinforces the idea that suffering and happiness shape who we are. as painful as it is, never forget them because you'll lose yourself and your true desire to live.
still, kanade was alone and scared to remember. nobody would be there to comfort her through the pain of remembering.
but she isn't alone anymore, she has all of nightcord to help herself realise that she deserves happiness, that the pain she'll feel is an integral part of who she is.
and everything about her is precious. so, she finally allows herself to remember. tells herself that its okay to be sad, happy, to just feel without restraint.
and when she allows herself happiness, even just for a moment, she finally lets herself say her greatest wish all this while.
she just wants to be loved again.
