time was ... passing. that was the only thing that kanda knew for sure. people had been moving them around a bunch , from the forest into the ambulance , from the ambulance into the hospital , and now she was ... somewhere. it was mostly quiet now , after the people poking and prodding and asking questions realised that they wouldn't answer. kanda didn't know what was happening , their eyes staring out the window with an unfocused gaze. in their head it was like a movie , images flickering at a rapid pace , one replacing the other before she had time to process it. the forest , the cold , the body laying face down in the dewy grass , the wailing. the silence. instinctively she pressed her eyes shut , trying to forcefully erase the pictures from her memory.
the last time this had happened it had ended in smoke and ash with everything they ever knew gone. ever since then it had been a dark cloud hanging over her head. all her life she had tried to overcome the fear they had in her chest whenever her abilities were playing backstage , whenever the dread and doom became too strong. it was why the forest had been easier , why solitude and silence was easier. it hadn't been until recently that they had kind of told themself that maybe it wasn't a curse , that maybe being in portum had saved her from the pain she had once endured. how pathetically wrong they had been.