Shit. Shit. Shit. I don't know if it's just me who has reoccurring thoughts and feeling about the past but I'm sure as heck that it just happened like..now. like for the last hour. Lemme start over.
Has there ever been a person in your life that has/had made such an impact on your life, that no matter what you do with your life and no matter how much you've moved on with everything continually makes an appearance? Either an appearance on social media or an appearance in your photo album which you happen to be cleaning out or an appearance in your thoughts? I really thought it was all over. I really thought the second time was the last time. Is the third really the charm? Honestly, I don't know what to think. I just shouldn't think. I am totally over thinking this!
You know what it is with her? She opened my eyes to so much. She made me realize what fun is and can be. She made me come out of my "dark" time in my life. She brought me out of my shell. She made my feel happy. She was my first kiss. She was the first person who I wholeheartedly loved with every inch of my being and she was also the first person to break my heart.
I have dated, flirted, courted a couple people since then. I know you aren't supposed to compare relationships. I know doing so will ruin the one you currently have because nothing will ever be the same and nothing will feel the same as the last, of course, unless the last was terrible. Each relationship was different and great in their own way. Each taught me something new. And each also broke my heart. I want to believe that it wasn't meant to be. That fate had run its course with us and it was time to move on. BAM! Circle of life or something right? Guess who comes back around? Okay, so it's not like she's made any advances. Obviously I am overreacting. So I "accidentally" liked her Instagram. OOPS.