No Boundaries

limits are in the eye of the beholder

[wandrlust777]

[wandrlust777]

They say one year older, one year wiser. I seriously have to disagree. With each passing year, I feel like my ability to make decisions have been faltering. My perception of life is still constantly changing. Settling down scares me. Everything I thought I knew about the world and about how life works is complete garbage. They say it’s my lack of a family. I say that’s bullshit. I say its the lack of guidance. The fact is that being passed around as a kid, losing a parent, being psychological abuse as a child, That is what really does a number on a person. I’d like to think I turned out okay. You make the choices. Im still learning to make the right ones.

4:06am

[wandrlust777]

I thought that you and I were meant to be just friends. I thought we were simply going to be the kind of friends who laugh about stupid jokes, make silly faces, share seriously racist jokes, have long drunk talks about life and love and everything from the stars to the ground. I thought I was just imagining things when I saw a twinkle in your eye. Perhaps I was too intoxicated so my vision was impaired. My heart was racing. Adrenaline, I think. The closer you got, the louder my heart was beating in my ears. I didn’t know what I wanted so I just pushed you away. That was a year ago. How times have changed as the days go on.

3:51am

[g-ayyee]

Date someone who will

wake up at 4am just to listen to you talk about a bad dream you just had

tease you for little things just to apologize six million times when you act upset

be nervous to kiss you for the first time because they don’t want to fuck up 

touch your butt 

offer to buy you a book that you absolutely love, and insist when you tell them no

watch your favorite movies with you even if they don’t like them

let you give them too much information and just listen to you talk for hours 

stay up until you fall asleep just because they want to talk to you

share your love for dogs

talk about animals with you for hours 

make you laugh even if it’s 2:30am and you’re laying in bed crying because you sat there and over thought

reassure you that they care and will always be there for you

tell you that they think you’re cute when you get angry at a video game 

laugh with you 

claim to not know what you’re talking about just so they can watch as you struggle to explain it just to tell you they already know and just think you’re adorable 

Most importantly, date someone who makes you happy. 

[wandrlust777]

So... Where are you?

[hipster-and-thoughts]

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[wandrlust777]

I totally forgot this song existed. Wow. 

[wandrlust777]

Shit.

Shit. Shit. Shit. I don't know if it's just me who has reoccurring thoughts and feeling about the past but I'm sure as heck that it just happened like..now. like for the last hour. Lemme start over. 

Has there ever been a person in your life that has/had made such an impact on your life, that no matter what you do with your life and no matter how much you've moved on with everything continually makes an appearance? Either an appearance on social media or an appearance in your photo album which you happen to be cleaning out or an appearance in your thoughts? I really thought it was all over. I really thought the second time was the last time. Is the third really the charm? Honestly, I don't know what to think. I just shouldn't think. I am totally over thinking this!

You know what it is with her? She opened my eyes to so much. She made me realize what fun is and can be. She made me come out of my "dark" time in my life. She brought me out of my shell. She made my feel happy. She was my first kiss. She was the first person who I wholeheartedly loved with every inch of my being and she was also the first person to break my heart. 

I have dated, flirted, courted a couple people since then. I know you aren't supposed to compare relationships. I know doing so will ruin the one you currently have because nothing will ever be the same and nothing will feel the same as the last, of course, unless the last was terrible. Each relationship was different and great in their own way. Each taught me something new. And each also broke my heart. I want to believe that it wasn't meant to be. That fate had run its course with us and it was time to move on. BAM! Circle of life or something right? Guess who comes back around? Okay, so it's not like she's made any advances. Obviously I am overreacting. So I "accidentally" liked her Instagram. OOPS. 

[wandrlust777]

Day one. Solo Vacation getaway.

So begins my year of firsts. Today, I embarked on a 4 day mini vacation to Mont Tremblant, QC. The catch, this is a solo trip. I’ve never been somewhere like this before alone. Its always been a family and friends sort of deal. This was like a retreat for my soul. I needed to step away from my daily routine and hectic work days and hours to appreciate what other things are out there. My view from the little inn I am staying at is beautiful. It looks out onto Mercier Lake within a quiet surrounding neighbourhood. I’ve just settled in bringing all sorts of supplies to calm my soul while I’m out here.

- books. You can never seem to read enough. I used to be such an avid reader and I’ve since lost touch of that side of myself.

-snacks. Food for the body and soul. :)

-music. To calm my running mind and to relax my tense self!

-drinks. Tea and hot chocolate to warm my insides when I’m ready to embark on a hike possibly tomorrow as my first of day two in my journey of Firsts.

[wandrlust777]

Year of Firsts

Seldom do we think about our day. Yes, we talk about it, but we don’t really think about what we do. We just do it. It is just how we process our day. We wake up, get ready, probably skip breakfast ( I’m guilty), go to work, come home, sleep and repeat the next day. We are so stuck in auto repeat we often lose sight of the meaning of life.

I’ve begun reading this book called, “I Dare Me” written by Lu Ann Cahn. In it, she states that she’s basically hit a rut in her life. Nothing seemed exciting or new anymore. She was looking for something to refresh her life and her daughter suggested to do something new every day for 365 days. And off she went. I’ve only begun reading about some of her experiences and I am already inspired. I am willing to start this challenge! It begins today, Thursday October 23, 2014.