#katshep rambles

[katherineshep]

Arcana routes

Does anyone else feel uncomfortable about going through different routes with the same MC?

I'm gonna finish Asra's route and I don't quite want to tell him that I love him because that would be untrue: my heart's with Julian now... Asra is a great character and his love to MC is powerful, but I made my choice towards another guy and I don't want to break Asra's heart.

Also, I want to know Muriel's story and it touches my feels from the very beginning... But I feel like cheating on Jules in this walkthrough.

It was especially weird to do Julian's walkthrough after half of Asra's (I begun playing Arcana with Asra's route) and Asra standing there seeing us and Jules cuddle... Ok I get it that it is parallel Universe Asra, but still! So weird! Like he's witnessing me cheating on him... D:

It feels like I have to change the MC's name every time I play another route 😂

[katherineshep]

Oh hell.

Health went down drastically in the last week. I felt so much fatigued that I'm sure if I didn't take a day off to get some rest, I'd just get my heart stop in the middle of the day. I had shaking hands, wobbly legs and a pounding heart yesterday. Barely made it home from work.

Also, all other minor conditions I have all landed onto me at once and at this point I can't think of any bright thing I can have in my future. Like - I'm having such a huge list of health issues that it can make anyone feel depressed and a total waste, but fatigue is topping it all and it's becoming hard to work. Really hard. By now I had to scratch almost all the activities I loved to do, the only things I do now are getting to work, buying essentials and getting tests and doc visits. I'm too tired for most of hobbies and seriously considering to step down from the roles my theatre director gave me because I'm not sure I'll be able to work on them when a summer hiatus ends.

It feels like I'm becoming disabled.

[katherineshep]

Had to get some more ME into my brain to recover some details I've forgotten...

You should have seen me at the first meeting Shepard and Garrus XD I had to pause and rewind back for six times to continue watching without silent squeaking of all the feels XD

Now I'm stuffed with ME and my brain hurts, but I'm happy nonetheless XD And it's only like 30% of all the walkthrough XD

Also, Garrus is such a hothead in ME1! Giving him the advices like "at all costs" is really dangerous, because as it turned out, back in C-Sec he used to interrogate suspects with threats (and I don't want to think that those were physical, but that dialogue made it sound so, and now I'm a little bit f**ed up because my boy just couldn't!).

[katherineshep]

Me: - OMG five days off in a row, I can massively catch up with a sleep for the first time in a year!

Mom: - I'll get you up earlier tomorrow.

Me: - Why?

Mom: - Your sis is coming over.

Me: - So..?

Mom: - It's Easter, on Easter everyone must sit as a family and have a common breakfast.

Me: - Hell no, what's really important for me, a chronically fatigued person, is sleeping for enough time when I can! Just leave me alone!

Mom: - How stupid you are for not believing in anything in this life.

Me: - I know that good sleep would make me feel better and that's my beliefs, okay?

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You know, I let people believe what they want and follow the traditions they want because that's what every person chooses for themselves.

But when something is more important for specific person, you just have to let them be. You can't make a person with gastrointestinal issues stick to severe religious diet before Easter - that's just not for them. You can't make a person with lactose intolerance drink milk - that's not for them. You can't make anyone do anything that would harm them or prevent them from getting something important. That's just mean.

Let people do what's better for them. Respect their wishes and needs. Please.

[katherineshep]

When you have two native languages and one acquired and try to write in all of them...

[katherineshep]

Okay I don't like winter, but one thought about Thirteen's Christmas Special waiting for me this Christmas - and I'm instantly like: "BRING IT ON!"?

Guess I've never been more excited about meeting Christmas! First of all, my family celebrates it on 6-7 of January due to the Gregorian calendar that is major in my country. Second, in my country's culture the main year's celebration is New Year, not Christmas, the latter being more like a family gathering with solemn religious dinner, also with children walking from apartment to apartment and singing Christmas Carols (though those are rare too because the tradition is dying in big cities). I've met last Christmas Special, Twice Upon a Time, with no usual delay (previously I had been watching Doctor Who being YEARS and then months late to the party), and I loved it. But this year, meeting Christmas with Thirteen, who reached my heart in only two episodes? OH MY GOD, IT'S A BLESSING! ❤❤❤

Also: I get drowned into the desire to re-watch episodes with 13 twice-thrice a week. Seen 11x01 three times, 11x02 - 2.5 times now, but I feel like I have to run it once more because ALL THE BEAUTY AND MESSAGES!!!11. Sincerely, these two episodes are SO GOOD that they "click" and I'm so, so delighted with them that I just can't believe it. Haven't felt that with "Doctor Who" for a long time. Also, I haven't felt like re-watching something three times in a row for an eternity, literally about a decade. And now DW brought this unique feeling back! Yay!

It's that exact case, when a TV show makes your day brighter; and also Sunday becomes a little celebration every time because there's the new amazing Doctor to take you to a new mind-blowing and heartwarming adventure.

[katherineshep]

"He could do a perfect cosplay!"

If you're a cosplayer, do you coscast people too? Do you happen to see a stranger and think that he'd be perfect in some cosplay?

Like, once, walking the street, I met a man who would be an excellent Neo from "The Matrix" - if he knew what cosplay even is, if he'd be interested in it, if he liked Neo as a character. But no, it's never gonna happen, because he's just walking past me in his daily businesses, probably already annoyed with people's comments that he has such a big likeness to Keanu Reeves. And he could use it really successfully, like, for example, Harry_potter_lookalike cosplayer and his friends.

Couple of minutes ago I met a woman in my work's neighborhood who would, with some amount of make-up, do a great Yasmin Khan. Just awesome in-character Yaz. But nooo(((

It gives me so much frustration every time)) Because those lookalike people could make awesome cosplays, visual likeness gives them the whole ocean of opportunities in cosplay of a character! I have some likeness to the characters I cosplay, ME3's default Shepard and Thirteenth Doctor, but it's not 100% accurate likeness and it still needs applying some makeup and sacrificing my eyebrows every time I cosplay Thirteen. I want to cosplay Clara Oswald one day, but I'll need massive and very accurate make-up, because my face has completely different build from Jenna Coleman's face. Having facial traits similar to the character you want to portray is a blessing, otherwise you have to master cosplay make-up.

I'm not jealousy to those accurate-looking people, but - they could use what nature gave them)) They couuuuld)) And they dont((

[katherineshep]

Just received this thing... and I wanna jump around the room of happiness! I've been dreaming about this palette for about a year. The makeup kit I've gathered over the last 2 years for my cosplays is pretty extensive, but still, it isn't good for contouring. So I've decided to take my cosplay makeup to a whole new level and try this legendary palette. Hopefully I'll get along with its creamy texture well as powder palette wasn't as good in blending and as lasting.

OMG, I'm sooo excited right now! Can't wait to try it on, but I've got hours of work ahead and some evening business too. But - I finally have this thing! OH MY GOOOD!