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[nothappybutfeelingglad]

Codeine lines

And I feel

Just fine

Unlike the H

That used to get me

High

These codeine lines

Are just

Alright

[nothappybutfeelingglad]

Leave Me

I can’t tell you how I feel

Because I don’t even know

Every door in which I’ve opened

I can’t seem to close

So I’m floating in these memories

Soaking in my grief

Reliving past experiences that

Leave me

Bittersweet

And I wish I could tell you

And I wish I could scream

But everything that’s broken in me

Suffocates my dreams

It’s everything I don’t know

It’s unrequited being

It’s the feeling of being lost entirely

If I don’t find myself

Succeeding

I could tell you how I feel

You could help me find the meaning

But what scares me most isn’t

What I can do

But

What I will do if you

Leave me.

12/25/18

[nothappybutfeelingglad]

The Tiny Mountain

There’s a tiny mountain

Where a little tiny girl sits

With her little tiny feelings

And her little tiny thoughts

She speaks little tiny words

That no one ever hears

And makes little tiny wishes

That will never be real

On her little tiny mountain

She holds her little tiny head

And crys little tiny tears

That fall on little tiny hands

Her little tiny dreams

Are not what they used to be

Her little tiny nightmares

Are ever more mighty

But because she is so little

Because she is so tiny

It will never even matter

No happily ever after