#thisiswhatdepressionfeelslike

[nothappybutfeelingglad]

Leave Me

I can’t tell you how I feel

Because I don’t even know

Every door in which I’ve opened

I can’t seem to close

So I’m floating in these memories

Soaking in my grief

Reliving past experiences that

Leave me

Bittersweet

And I wish I could tell you

And I wish I could scream

But everything that’s broken in me

Suffocates my dreams

It’s everything I don’t know

It’s unrequited being

It’s the feeling of being lost entirely

If I don’t find myself

Succeeding

I could tell you how I feel

You could help me find the meaning

But what scares me most isn’t

What I can do

But

What I will do if you

Leave me.

12/25/18

[nothappybutfeelingglad]

Sober...

I’m one year sober...

Sober from being out of pain

Sober from being free of worry

Sober from feeling some type of

Calm...unburdened...happy

I’m sober

But I’d give it all away again

To feel that perfect high

Once more

To be pain free and soar

To sleep so soundly

I believe that I’d opened doors

Even though the dosage

Is...never enough...

It costs so much

Money, family, friends

To be pain free and happy

How much would you give?

And will it ever be enough?

~ Christmas Eve 2018 ~

[chenaitakundwa-blog1]

It's far easier To accept I'm one of those Happiness eludes

[anima-galattica]

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How having both anxiety and depression feels like. #ArtPiece #thiswhatdepressionlookslike #thisiswhatdepressionfeelslike #dontwannaqueueyounow #dontqueforgetaboutme

[cartoongoblin]

I don't know if it's the state of the US government right now, brain chemistry, or what, but I'm really struggling this morning. I've been hit by kryptonite. I just want to curl up in a ball. And yet, I'm going on with my day. #ThisIsWhatDepressionFeelsLike

[missemilymaree]

Depression;

Knowing that going to the gym will make you feel better.

Lacking motivation to get out of bed.

Thinking about the gym while stuffing face with chocolate. 

[missemilymaree]

being numb sucks.