#kawa rambles

[kawapunks]

late bday present for my amazing friend @arcade9witch !!!! 

i drew her hansel and gretel ocs!! they are very Good girls and i love them 

i tried my best hghgghfhg

[kawareo]

"AI does this better than me :("

"My work is never as good as AI's :("

"I have to use AI to be good :("

you're devaluing yourself. AI is not smart, it's not creative, it just has access to the whole internet at once (which btw includes all the wrong things), and guess what, so do you. You're better than the plagiarism machine and you've been lied to and told that it's smarter than you and I hope you stop believing that because you deserve better

[kawareo]

Transformers Animated is so funny because specifically Megatron doesn't seem to be aware of the fact that he is in a kids' show. This man is taking everything so seriously. He goes for the kill all the time. He ignores all the 'this show is for kids' things around him. He spends an entire season as a cut off head and tries to kill the main cast at every moment anyway. Starscream betrays him again and he kills him. Starscream keeps coming back from the dead like a cartoon character? Megs kills him again. And again. Dumps his body out and goes back to serious business. Heroes keep attacking him? Fuck you he's bringing out a wholeass sword and a gun and he will use them. Never gonna forget the one time where Optimus saves him and then immediately after Megs picks him up and uses him as a shield. Everyone around him keeps doing and saying silly stuff for the funsies and he ignores them. Amazing. Irredeemable. He does not deal with cartoony stuff and mostly ignores anything that is like a kids show.

Like you could pick him up and plop him into TFP or IDW no problem, he's straight up a genocidal dictator. I love him and his non-silly ass

[kawareo]

A ship I wish I'd see more of is Ascended Astarion and his former lover, a mind-broken Urge.

A beast stuck in a slayer form, a monster who is not themselves anymore, a former person who can experience glimpses of mental clarity and uses them to beg for the mercy of death. A Durge who defied their Father and saved the world and in exchange destroyed every chance for freedom they could've had.

And a vampire Ascendant, a man who sacrificed thousands for what he thinks is personal freedom. He can walk in the sun but at the cost of doing so utterly alone. Grabbed Durge when they went insane and locked them away, promises to find a way to save them but c'mon, why would he do that? Like this, they're a mindless beast, the way he once was, wrapped tightly around the primal hunger and lust that was ordered by their Master, and AA is the only one who can ease the pain a little.

AA can't die by the feral beast. AA can take it when it rips apart anyone he throws to them for food. AA can whip and beat it until it cowers under him and he can call it mercy because the beast needs a firm hand. Wouldn't it be just so much easier if Durge had accepted to become spawn when Astarion offered? Wouldn't he be such a nicer master than Bhaal is?

Now look at what he is forced to do, the wretched beast.

Also I think this implies Sceleritas would start to annoy AA specifically because the beast of Bhaal is not meant to be locked up like this and I think that this is really funny

[kawareo]

Thinking about Durgetash post tadpol meeting and how that would've gone. I've seen so many cool interpretations, from Gortash getting creepy and possessive, to Durge ending up chained in a bed and trying to strangle him with chains, to Durge feeling nothing and coming to him just for answers, to Gortash feeling nothing because this isn't his Durge anymore and he finds them weak and pathetic. Gortash locking Durge up to either force them to remember of who they are, or to break them completely if they can't, Durge being disgusted and hateful or even scared. And I love all of them, but!

What if it was none of that. What if they botb expect something like it, they're both tense, and ready, and unsure - and then the meeting happens, and just... They're back where they were. Durge doesn't remember, maybe walks a different path, but besides that, is personality wise the same. Gortash drops his personas and serves them their favorite drink and it's the same as it was back then. They sit and can agree to an alliance and it feels so much like nothing changed that Gortash forgets himself and makes an inside joke that Durge doesn't understand but still chuckles at. Durge doesn't remember Gortash's old name or favorite dish but remembers exactly the way his skin feels. Gortash notices that Durge still stims when they're sitting but the stim is now different than it was before.

What if there was nothing more. What if they changed so much and yet not at all. What if they both came ready for a violent altercation but now they're just two sad people starting to go grey who were so lonely and know eachother best and yet not at all anymore. What then.

They still have to go to their own sides in the morning. Nothing will change for them. Nothing ever did change for them, either, and they would've both been better off if they never met up.

[kawareo]

Gortash should visit Durge's camp in act 3. The tadfools come home by night, and there he is, chilling by the campfire, scratching Scratch behind an ear as if he belongs there.

Everyone stares in anger and horror because he still has his claws on but Scratch is oblivious (you cant tell me Gortash couldn't charisma his way into a dog liking him) and Gort just looks up from a book he was reading like "ah good youre finally here! Just wanna talk :)"

And everyone just knows that there are Banites all around them in the dark. And Gortash's claws are right on Scratch's head.

[kawareo]

I don't grow out of my hyperfixations I put them in a basement when I find a new one and I pretend they don't exist but every once in a while I will be writing something original and realized that a winx club villain has snuck out of the basement and has been guiding my hand this whole time

[kawareo]

Fun fact about me but I've never actually finished bg3. I have gotten to act3 around seventeen times though