#kds.writes

[joshhcrtnett]

now the world is only white noise (frequencies that i can't understand) (4631 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Ambessa Medarda & Mel Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends)/Mel Medarda, Katye Medarda & Mel Medarda, Elora & Mel Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Katye Medarda, Ambessa Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends), Elora (Arcane: League of Legends), Cousin Medarda Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Canon Compliant, Angst, Mel Medarda-centric, Spoilers for Ambessa: Chosen of the Wolf - C.L. Clark, Grief/Mourning, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, 5+1 Things, Not Beta Read

Summary:

Her fingers shake now in the privacy of her own chambers. Out of Elora's sight, the only other person who would understand her response to this piece of paper. A thin, small thing lying heavy in her hand. That seal of hers weighing it further down with every sorrow she has brought her mother. Mel can feel that scrutinizing gaze of hers on her already. Or still. Disappointed at the failure she has put in the world. Everything — but a wolf.

 Or: five times Mel needed to be held and the one time she was.

[joshhcrtnett]

my anger comes at my expense, there's always something to be up against (2337 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 1/10 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: Mature Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Jayce (League of Legends)/Mel Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends), Ximena Talis, Ambessa Medarda, Original Characters Additional Tags: Unresolved Tension, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Anger, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Time Skips, Four Years From Canon, Not Canon Compliant, Post-Canon Fix-It, Eventual Smut, Miscommunication, Harboring Bitter Feelings, Mel Medarda-centric, Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, Grief/Mourning, General Mel Medarda, Not Beta Read Summary:

"A wolf," she says as she opens her eyes again, meeting those of her mother across the desk, "is a very lonely being."

At least the wolf her mother made her out to be.

The room stays silent. Her thoughts stay loud. The inner turmoil grows from a slow grumble to a loud storm. Even the fiery taste of the liquor does nothing to stop her from feeling.

"This is the mother I know best," a smile on her lips that doesn't reach her eyes, nor her heart, "Silent."

[joshhcrtnett]

my anger comes at my expense, there's always something to be up against (50688 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 15/22 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Jayce (League of Legends)/Mel Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends), Ximena Talis, Ambessa Medarda, Original Characters, Caitlyn (League of Legends), Vi (League of Legends) Additional Tags: Unresolved Tension, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Anger, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Time Skips, Four Years From Canon, Not Canon Compliant, Post-Canon Fix-It, Eventual Smut, Miscommunication, Harboring Bitter Feelings, Mel Medarda-centric, Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, Grief/Mourning, General Mel Medarda, Not Beta Read, Slow Burn, Jayce Bashing (League of Legends), Minor Caitlyn/Vi (League of Legends), Only Meljay, Not League Compliant, Vaginal Sex, Oral Sex, Ambessa: Chosen of the Wolf Spoilers, Ambessa Book Spoilers Summary:

"A wolf," she says as she opens her eyes again, meeting those of her mother across the desk, "is a very lonely being."

At least the wolf her mother made her out to be.

The room stays silent. Her thoughts stay loud. The inner turmoil grows from a slow grumble to a loud storm. Even the fiery taste of the liquor does nothing to stop her from feeling.

"This is the mother I know best," a smile on her lips that doesn't reach her eyes, nor her heart, "Silent."

[joshhcrtnett]

guess i lost you and you lost me (3551 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jayce & Jayce's Father (League of Legends) Characters: Jayce (League of Legends), Jayce's Father (League of Legends), Mel Medarda Additional Tags: Minor Jayce/Mel Medarda, it's not the focus but it's there, Not Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Mentioned Ximena Talis, Family Reunions, Light Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Some kind of comfort at least, implied mental health issues, Jayce Needs a Hug (League of Legends), Not Beta Read

Summary:

It happens every two to three days. When he finally feels his mind settle in a body that isn't his, it comes apart again. An unsettling sensation. Pang. His soul torn from his ribcage. Pang. Muscles cramping. Pang. Body frozen in time. Pang. All while he watches himself from the outside — or a version of himself. It is a different version every single time. Days passing. Worlds, too. Not a single world his own. Not a single body either. It looks like him, sounds like him, too, but it is never him. His skin never feels like home.

Or: what if Jayce doesn't end up in one singular other universe but several? Constantly skipping from one universe to another until he finds himself in this specific one?

[joshhcrtnett]

day 1 ♡ dorks in love / mutual pining an ongoing collab longfic w/ @bldhound set in the death stranding universe with porter jayce and artist mel pining for each other and being dorks in love.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[joshhcrtnett]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 6/10 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: Mature Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Jayce (League of Legends)/Mel Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends), Ximena Talis, Ambessa Medarda, Original Characters Additional Tags: Unresolved Tension, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Anger, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Time Skips, Four Years From Canon, Not Canon Compliant, Post-Canon Fix-It, Eventual Smut, Miscommunication, Harboring Bitter Feelings, Mel Medarda-centric, Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, Grief/Mourning, General Mel Medarda, Not Beta Read, Slow Burn, Jayce Bashing (League of Legends) Summary:

"A wolf," she says as she opens her eyes again, meeting those of her mother across the desk, "is a very lonely being."

At least the wolf her mother made her out to be.

The room stays silent. Her thoughts stay loud. The inner turmoil grows from a slow grumble to a loud storm. Even the fiery taste of the liquor does nothing to stop her from feeling.

"This is the mother I know best," a smile on her lips that doesn't reach her eyes, nor her heart, "Silent."

[joshhcrtnett]

pull up your roots, leave your dirt behind (2849 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Elora & Mel Medarda, Mel Medarda & Jago Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Elora (Arcane: League of Legends), Jago Medarda Additional Tags: Mel Medarda-centric, Mentioned Ambessa Medarda, Mentioned Azizi Medarda, Mentioned Kino Medarda, Light Angst, Strained Mother Daughter Relationship, Self-Doubt, Self-Worth Issues, Piltover (League of Legends), Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, Teenage Mel Medarda, Birthday, Mentioned Hanek Medarda, Ambessa Chosen Of The Wolf Spoilers, Post Ambessa Chosen Of The Wolf Summary:

She wasn't even there to wave her goodbye.

A soft knock against the door keeps her from looking for her mother in her own image. As much as she sees her father, she sees her mother too. Seeks her out even. Sometimes. More often than not. Every single time she does, she wonders if her mother sees this too. If it is just another reason to despise her own child, to think of her as weak, as useless, a failure of a daughter. If her mother sees all the promise of a true Medarda just to be met with the truth of who Mel is.

Two truths that cannot co-exist. Not in a home made of wolves.

[joshhcrtnett]

my anger comes at my expense, there's always something to be up against (44148 words) by speedynavi Chapters: 13/21 Fandom: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Major Character Death Relationships: Jayce (League of Legends)/Mel Medarda Characters: Mel Medarda, Jayce (League of Legends), Ximena Talis, Ambessa Medarda, Original Characters, Caitlyn (League of Legends), Vi (League of Legends) Additional Tags: Unresolved Tension, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Anger, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Time Skips, Four Years From Canon, Not Canon Compliant, Post-Canon Fix-It, Eventual Smut, Miscommunication, Harboring Bitter Feelings, Mel Medarda-centric, Mel Medarda Needs a Hug, Grief/Mourning, General Mel Medarda, Not Beta Read, Slow Burn, Jayce Bashing (League of Legends), Minor Caitlyn/Vi (League of Legends), Only Meljay, Not League Compliant, Vaginal Sex, Oral Sex, Ambessa: Chosen of the Wolf Spoilers, Ambessa Book Spoilers Summary:

"A wolf," she says as she opens her eyes again, meeting those of her mother across the desk, "is a very lonely being."

At least the wolf her mother made her out to be.

The room stays silent. Her thoughts stay loud. The inner turmoil grows from a slow grumble to a loud storm. Even the fiery taste of the liquor does nothing to stop her from feeling.

"This is the mother I know best," a smile on her lips that doesn't reach her eyes, nor her heart, "Silent."