Hey. As your askbox is open I hope it's okay to ask random questions about Kev?
I've just read the story about him going undercover in a hospital and suddenly wondered: what if Kev lost his memories for real?
How much of his training is so hardwired into him that it would still have effect without any memories to go with? Would you prefer it if he had just undergone NR and therefore has no scars or wounds on him,so basically nothing to piece his own story back together or would you want him to look into the mirror for the first time (that he remembers) and be shocked about how riddled his body is with scars that have long healed but prove that he's been hurt over and over and over again.
Would he be able to trust someone who tries to help or would he be completely paranoid?
(I kind of want him to be held by someone nice, someone who really wants what's best for him and who could make him let go of everything, just for a moment - but I know that wouldn't happen in his current Living weapon state so...amnesia maybe?)
P.s. I'd also like to know what Ghostfever is, as I haven't found an explanation so far and am too curious for my own good ;)
Hello hello! You can always ask, yes! Random questions about the boy make me happy ✨
Oh that is a question for the ages!
I believe even with total amnesia, his training would still be very hardwired. He'd intuitively keep being hyperaware of his surroundings, and many fighting reflexes would come second nature to him.
It's unlikely he'd be full of scars, because every time that happens he does go through NR (can't risk that kind of sleeper damage accumulating and hindering him at the wrong time!). I think it's actually more fun when he has no signs, and the abuse must be pieced together by his reactions instead, with no easy marks for everyone to see. I like how it's a representation of how his trauma works: it's not immediately visible, he can even seem perfectly functional, spotless, until you sit down and pay attention.
He would be extremely wary and hard to trust, because that kind of conditioning doesn't get reset just because you forgot the reason for it. But he can learn!
Your wish will be granted, at some point :) He'll fight it, more with invisible internal barriers than literally, but one day... 🥺
(As for ghostfever, I don't think I've shared a full explanation and I won't until it gets explained in canon, but for now, it's a made up physiological reaction in vektian people. Basically floods them with endorphins and adrenaline, the details vary (there's more than one type) but it's kind of a high for them: feels good, and heightens performance!)