The door will open again on his smiling face, rushing into his arms like he always does. Ruffling his hair, covering his face with kisses.
Junhong curled around his knees, his eyes closed. Like he always does. It's been three days, four, five ? since his love walked out the door, and he hasn't moved. He slept there, right where he fell , eyes tired and dry from all the tears he shed.
His body slowly slipped to lay on the floor. He tried to sit up again, this time his arms refusing to support him.
The young boy turned to face the door, without a blink.
One, two, three. Please, comeback.
Resting his hand on his round stomach, he felt a weak nudge under his fingers.The reason he left.
1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.
I watched in awe, to be honest… I wasn’t expecting it to be that good, I thought it’d be more for kids, but…. everything was just so good, I got so caught up I needed to watch it again…. *chuckles*
2: Talk about your first kiss.
Oh, my first kiss… *laughs* That was my best friend, Daehyunie-hyung… I was playing, as always, and ended up in an awkward- but not unpleasant- situation. My first kiss definitely wasn’t innocent, but it was great, just like him. *laughs*
3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.
Oh. *blushing* Mhm. I’ve had intense crushes before, but that person would be my current boyfriend… He’s… ah, there are no words.
He made me want to be committed when I had sworn to never give my trust to anyone anymore, he thought about what would be the best for me, thus for us and stayed even though I hurt him badly. He listened and accepted my past and what I am, and never complain no matter how stupid I can act sometimes.
He made me fall for him all over again when I was broken, and I just want to stay forever by his side..
4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.
Mhm, I’m not sure… I live my life so I regret nothing, even the things and people who broke me because they made me who I am now. So, no, I regret nothing.
5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
Oh, I’m not sure… the last one was really great, I received lots of love from Babyz, my family and my members….
6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.
When I turned 13… I didn’t get to really spend it with the best people.
7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.
People closest to my heart doing a 180 and using my weaknesses against me..
8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.
My members, and my boyfriend~ I’m really proud when my name is associated to theirs.. It’s an honor.
9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
I like my nose~ And my tattoos ! I like my piercings too…
10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.
I don’t know if you could call that a fight because he became my worst nightmare, but that’d be the best friend -the only friend- I had when I started middle school.
11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.
Mhm~ I was standing on a huge stage… I couldn’t see the end of the hall, there were people from all over the world. We were all singing and dancing together, I know there were the members somewhere beside me, but I could only see the public… It was magic. We were all breathing like one man, I wish I can live this one day…
12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.
I used to have nightmares when I started training, always the same persons, always the same… situation.
13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.
My first time… I didn’t expect it. *laughs* I had just met him back then, and it was all just a game until I ended up on the counter… Anyway, it was really good, so good I needed a second round.
14: Talk about a vacation.
Oh, I didn’t have that in a while…
15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.
That would be right now… I’m slowly making peace with myself, and I have the most amazing people around me to help me.
16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.
I’ve… never really been to that…
17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.
I’m desperately looking out for my members around here, especially Jongupie-hyung…
Also, I wish I could be friends with my twinnies, but beside one, they all like to ignore me. Not cool, bros.
18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.
Wah man just… I don’t know, I did nothing special in primary school..
19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.
No, just.. no.
20: Talk about something that happened in high school.
I debuted with my members~ I’m still in high school- technically.
21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.
Really, really painful… Because I really like that person, as a friend. It was hard on both of us.
22: Talk about your worst fear.
Eating Daehyunie-hyung’s food without knowing… His revenge is destructive..
23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.
They haven’t, technically… But, them meeting and happily dating someone else did pretty much everything. He was my first friend and he was special to me, still is, but I know I’ve never counted for him as much as he does for me. He was my first crush and I had the hardest time moving on, because not only he’s my first friend but he’s an amazing person. I look up to him, and I wish we could be as close as we were before…
24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
"You are not alone this time.."
But more than words, he showed me what he meant, and I could never thank him enough.
25: Talk about an ex-best friend.
No.
26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick.
Whining and eating warm soups… Claiming cuddles and kisses. *laughs*
27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.
I love his eyes.. They express so much happiness, hurt, pain, lust…love.
28: Talk about your fetishes.
Oh man, there are lots… *laughs* I like hands and piercings a lot. Tattoos too, but it’s no secret.
29: Talk about what turns you on.
Wandering fingers, a great kiss and kisses on the back of my neck..
When in heat, pretty much everything.
30: Talk about what turns you off.
Honestly, I can’t think of anything right now…
31: Talk about what you think death is like.
Nothingness.. nothing to feel, ear, smell, see, taste, think. You’re just… nothing anymore.
32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
The docks in Mokpo… I like to go there sometimes, and look at the mountains.
33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.
I’m a bit self-destructive when I’m sad, but fortunately there always is someone to take care of me.
34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.
The scars all over my face will tell you more than I ever will.
35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
Hitting on everyone when in heat… Having my heats…
36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.
How about you come and see by yourself ?
37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.
A hyung who was everything I wished for, but who happened to be a lie. He almost took away the only happiness I had.
38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
That’s pretty personal~ But I have many songs that remind me of Key-hyung and Yonggukie-hyung.
39: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
There really are people who are worth living for out there.
