#kindalong

[jessikaysngr]

#KindaLong + #Personal but I wanted to share! • on November 18 2017, my sister @kaela_renee got me floor seats to a Texas basketball game from her job at the Texas club. I called my mom to tell her but my dad said she was in town + to call her cell. she didn’t answer so I texted her. little did I know she was at the hospital having her vitals checked but she still didn’t want my family to tell me because she didn’t want me to worry. (if you didn’t know, my mom had Multiple Sclerosis) later that night after the game, she suddenly passed away. the doctor who saw her that day sent us a letter after learning of her death + said everything was perfectly normal + that he’d never experienced a patient dying hours after confirming they were healthy. flash forward to November 18 2019, the same day two years apart, my bestie @faithdotjpg had the honor of being recognized as the teacher of the Mavs vs Spurs game: my moms favorite NBA teams (she was obsessed with Dirk + anything San Antonio, we literally vacationed there every year 💀) and my first professional basketball game. I know this was her working with God to ensure that I didn’t have a bad day thinking about her being physically absent from me. and having nearly floor seats for FREE for my first professional game recognizing my bestie, a san antonio native. although it still hurts + is hard to wrap my head around sometimes, I can truly say that I am more than blessed; even with the trauma I endured from losing her. + I am thankful that the greatest gift my mom ever gave me was faith (lol) in God. 💛 forever missing you karen vonrosea.🌹 (at American Airlines Center) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5JowIjApEe/?igshid=nqyq7toyye9w

[mgjournal]

Elements Tag

RULES: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag people.

@ka-lada tagged me.

Air:

I have small hands • I love the night sky • I watch small animals and birds when I pass them by • I drink herbal tea • I wake to see dawn • The smell of dust is comforting • I’m valued for being wise • I prefer books to music • I meditate • I find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

Fire:

I don’t have straight hair • I like to wear ripped jeans and overalls • I play an organized sport (not much nowadays) • I love dogs • I am not afraid of adventure • I love to talk to strangers (depends on the day) • I always try new foods • I enjoy road trips • Summer is my favorite season • My radio is always playing

Water:

I wear bracelets on my wrists • I love the bustle of the city • I have more than one set of piercings • I read poetry • I love the sound of a thunderstorm• I want to travel the world • I sleep past midday most days • I love dimly lit diners and fluorescent signs • I rewatch kids’ shows out of nostalgia • I see emotions in colors, not words

Earth:

I wear glasses/contacts • I enjoy doing the laundry • I am a vegetarian or vegan • I have an excellent sense of time • My humor is very cheerful • I am a valued advisor to my friends • I believe in true love • I love the chill of mountain air • I’m always listening to music (mentally) • I am highly trusted by the people in my life (maybe?)

Aether:

I go without makeup in my daily life • I make my own artwork • I keep on track of my tasks and time • I always know true north • I see beauty in everything • I can always smell flowers • I smile at everyone I pass by • I always fear history repeating itself • I have recovered from a mental disorder • I can love unconditionally (maybe)

I shall tag @ka-lada @booksloversnevergotobedalone and anyone who wants to make this.

[barbieheadbiter]

summer hair 💇💇💇 #hair #kindashort #kindalong

[777poke777]

So today is a bit of a strong one for me. This marks one year since one of my closest friends dropped out of my life because of something I had no control over. It was hard. I remember feeling lost in the dark and betrayed. Since then I lost someone I considered family. Actually I lost them right before Christmas. So six months ago. 5 months ago I was used... In the most degrading way I can think of. I don't reveal a lot about myself on here. But after so long of waiting for someone I loved to share my first with. I was used. She took my virginity and then left calling me things that made me feel worthless. These three events pushed me to the darkest parts of myself. Now I can say I'm healed. These events do not define my worth. But are important too remember. And even after the darkest of times. I wish the three of these lovely people the best. Not for my sake. But because I know all three of them still have good in their hearts. Thank you.

[mintbunny2theface]

Sneak

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HM: You wake up in the middle of the night when you hear something in another room. You see a young man who seems to be stealing some food, he's a dark hoodie and black jeans. He has short brown hair sticking from his hood and above the bronze goggles he has.

Alistair: He 2;9w;y 2neak'2 f9rward and pin'2 the y9ung man again2t a wa;; "Wha are y9u and why are y9u in my hive?" he gr9w;2 ;9w;y

Alistair: ((wh9*))

HM: His face quickly changed to scared shitless "oh shit.. I was just grabbing food, n-nothing valuable"

Alistair: he didn't ;et g9 "and why 2h9u;d i be;ieve that?"

HM: He looks at the sack he dropped on the floor "check my nights progress if you don't believe me.."

Alistair: "if y9u try t9 attack me 9r e2cape i wi;; 2h9ve a 2w9rd up y9u're a22." he ;et g9 and 2earched the item'2 9n the f;99r

HM: The sack was just full of various foods, some foods smashed together from hitting the floor and other reasons. Meanwhile he slides down the wall, breathing heavily

Alistair: "y9u're ;ucky my decedent'2 aren't h9me, then i w9u;d have ki;;ed y9u with9ut ;i2tening t9 y9u're 2t9ry kid." he 2t99d back up and 2tared at the 9ther ma;e "d9 y9u want 29mething t9 drink?"

HM: He nodded hesitantly "p-please.. Drinks are harder to steal so I don't really have any.."

Alistair: "if y9u want 29mething ju2t kn9ck 9n the d99r and a2k, i ain't a cheap ba2tard ya' kn9w." he wa;ked 9ver t9 a fridge "g9 2it at the tab;e bef9re ya' fa;; 9ver i m92t ;ike;y 2cared the 2hit 9utta ya'"

HM: He nodded and got up, going to the table "well, I don't really stalk the people I steal from, I just break in, try not to steal anything and only get food"

HM: Try not to break*

Alistair: he chuck;ed "and t9night y9u a;m92t g9t a 2w9rd 2h9ved up y9u're a22 d9in' that tw9" he br9ught a 29da and a beer t9 the tab;e. he 2at the 29da in fr9nt 9f the 9ther and t99k a 2ma;; 2wig fr9m the beer "are y9u a;right?"

HM: (( trying not to steal anything would be the entire opposite of his character XP

HM: "Yeah, and the house before this I was actually almost killed by a swordsman, not as generous as you were" he sipped the soda

Alistair: "the 9n;y rea29n i'm being gener9u2 i2 becau2e Shade and Shad9w aren't h9me 9therwi2e i w9u;d'a ki;;ed y9u" he p9inted t9 a picture that wa2 hanging 9n the wa;; that 2h9wed f9ur 2eadwe;;er'2 tw9 adu;t tr9;;'2 and tw9 nine 2weep 9;d'2

HM: "You protect them? Or would you have killed me to show off?" Sip

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Alistair: "pr9tect, i'm n9t a2 much 9f a 2h9w 9ff a2 i wa2 in my y9unger year'2"

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HM: He laughs a little and finishes his off his soda, pulling out some preserved cake from his sack, putting it on the table "thanks, for not killing me, maybe I'll stop by sometimes just to say hey"

Alistair: "kn9ck next time if n9viux wa2 h9me he w9u;d have ripped y9u're thr9ugh 9ut....with hi2 teeth"

HM: "Yeah that'd probably hurt the few seconds before I was dead" he smiled and waved him off as he jumped back through the window

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Alistair: "grub'2 the2e day'2 h9ne2t;y" he 2n9rted in amu2ement bef9re heading back t9 bed

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[dee069]

It's finally here! Rihanna: BBHMM 🙈🙉🙊

[mintbunny2theface]

foosh

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CG: GOD DAMMIT GAMZEE!!!

TC: ShIt! hEyYy kArBrO

CG: GET OVER HERE!

TC: NaH ImA StAy oVeR HeRe...

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CG: NO YOURE GOING TO BRING YOUR JUGGALO ASS OVER HERE!!!

TC: *SlOwLy sLiNkS OvEr*

CG: WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?! *POINTS TO THE WINDOW*

TC: A WiNdOw

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CG: *YELLS* ITS!!! FUCKING!!! BROKEN!!!!

TC: *FlInChEs a bIt*

CG: WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!

TC: I-I DiDnT MeAn tO, i wAs gOnNa fIx iT BuT I CoUlDnT FiGuRe oUt hOw

CG: YOU CANT FIX BROKEN GLASS GAMZEE!

CG: *GROANS* LET ME SEE YOUR HANDS

TC: No.

CG: LET ME SEE THEM GAMZEE

TC: No kArKaT.

CG: *GRABS HIS WRISTS*

TC: *WiNcEs a bIt, hE HaD AlReAdY BaNdAgEd hIs hAnDs*

CG: THERES STILL GLASS IN THEM

TC: OnLy a lItTlE..

CG: WE NEED TO GET IT OUT

TC: I KnOw

CG: COME HERE.

TC: *SlOwLy cOmEs oVeR*

CG: *SITS HIM DOWN AND GETS THE REST OF THE GLASS OUT WITH TWEEZERS*

TC: *He wInCeD BuT ReFuSeD To mAkE AnY NoIsE*

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CG: *HE GETS ALL THE BLOOD OFF OF GANZEES HANDS AND REBANDAGES THEM*

CG: NOW WHAT DID EE LEARN TODAY?

TC: DoNt pIsS Of aN UpSeT KaRkAt bEcAuSe hE'Ll pUlL GlAsS OuT Of yOuR HaNdS.

TC: OfF*)

CG: DONT BREAK WINDOWS! *PINCHES HIS NOSE*

TC: I DiDnT MeAn tO I TrIpPeD

CG: *HE SIGHS* NOW COME OVER HERE I WANT TO CUDDLE. *BRINGS HIM TO THE COUCH*

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TC: ArE YoU AlRiGhT?*He cUdDlEd aBiT*

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CG: IM JUST UPSET OK?

TC: Do yOu wAnNa tAlK AbOuT It kArKaT?

CG: ....ITS NOTHING YOU DID....

TC: WhAt hApPeNeD

CG: FUCKING VRISKA...

CG: YOU CALLED ME A FAT BUCKET OF LARD WHO HAD BETTER CHANCE AT A RED ROM WITH A BRICK

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CG: ((*SHE NOT YOU

TC: *He vIsAbLeY StIfFeNeD* oH HeLl nO! iM GoNnA BeAt tHe sHiT OuT Of hEr!

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CG: G-GAMZEE I DONT WANT YOU FIGHTING ANYONE

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TC: ShE HaD No rIgHt tO SaY ThAt aBoUt yOu! yOu aRe tHe mOsT WoNdErFuL TrOlL HeRe aNd i wIlL NoT AlLoW HeR To sAy sOmEtHiNg lIkE ThAt tO YoU.

CG: GAMZEE SHES RIGHT

TC: No, sHe's rEaLlY NoT.

CG: LOOK AT ME, IM 20 POUNDS OVER WEIGHT AND IM TO FUCKING UGLY FOR ANYONE TO LOVE NE

TC: YoU'Re nOt fAt yOu'rE FlUfFy aNd iF AnYoNe cAlLs yOu uGlY I WiLl bEaT ThEm wItH A BrOoM

CG: *HE SNIFFLES*

TC: LoOk aT Me kArKaT.

CG: *HE LOOKS AT GAMZEE, A FEW TEARS FORMING*

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TC: YoU ArE NoT UgLy yOu'rE AcTuAlLy rAtHeR AtTrAcTiVe.*He bRuShEd kArKaT'S ChEeK GeNtLy* dOn't bElIeVe a wOrD ThAt sPiDeR BiTcH SaYs.

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CG: *HE SNIFFLES AND NODS, HOLDING GAMZEES HABD*

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TC: GoOd.*He sQuEeZeD KaRkAtS HaNd*

CG: *SMILES*

TC: FeEl bEtTeR?

CG: A LITTLE

TC: *PrEsSeS A SoFt kIsS To kArKaT'S FoR HeAd* i'lL GeT VrIsKa sOoN So dOnT WoRrY AbOuT HeR

CG: *HE NODS*

TC: GoOd bOy.

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TC: *He gRiNnEd a bIt*

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CG: HEHEH

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TC: GoT YoU To lAuGh

CG: SHUSH YOU

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TC: *He pOuTeD A BiT* i'lL TiCkLe yOu.

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CG: PLEASE DONT

TC: AiGhT.

CG: *PRESSES HIS FOREHEAD TO HIS*

TC: *NuZzLeS HiM A BiT*

CG: *KISSES HIS CHEEK*

TC: *KiSsEs hIs fOrEhEaD*

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CG: *KISSES HIS LIPS*

TC: *FlUsHeS*

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CG: *PULLS AWAY AFTER A MOMENT*

TC: *HiS WhOlE FaCe wAs pUrPlE He lOoKeD LiKe hE WaS AbOuT To dIe oR SoMeThInG*

CG: G-GAMZEE?

TC: *ThE DeEpSeD Of aLl pUrPlEs*

CG: SHIT.... IM SORRY

TC: PiNcH Me i mUsT Be dReAmInG

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CG: *SIGHS\

CG: *GIVES HIM A LITTLE NIBBLE INSTEAD*

TC: If i wAkE Up aNd i fInD OuT I WaS KiSsInG A PiLlOw aGaIn i wIlL Be sO PiSsEd*ShIvErS A BiT* tHiS Is..T-ThIs iS ReAl..?

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TC: ((I gtg mate thx for the rp my tumblrs mintbunny2theface see ya!

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[anunexplainablediva]

So now I'm slightly not in a good mood.

This is just gonna be a bit of a rant because I need to get seething off of my chest real quick. So tell me why I'm a jealous wreck right now simply because I feel like I should be getting some emails or texts or SOMETHING, about some auditions by now. I mean I DO have an agent, and it seems like everyone is getting gigs and all this cold stuff except me. -_- I'm just feeling some type of way towards this right now. I feel like I'm going to have to work harder than everyone else to get at least ONE stupid ass audition. I'm going to REALLY have to search. So when I finally can get a car, I'm signing up and applying to LOADS of casting calls that I can find and I will go out of my way to get some, because this is some bullshit. I'm pissed off, I'm jealous (especially because even my boyfriend is getting stuff and I'm left hanging. It's a shitty feeling; almost as if I'm not good enough or something when I KNOW I'm at the very least decent or worth SOMETHING.), I'm just over all upset. I can't sit by and just let this happen super easily with a peaceful mind... I'm upset about it. It doesn't seem fair. I've worked my ass off for YEARS, trying to be a good student, a good worker, and a good actor. I'm even working on my weaknesses, I'm taking dance classes, and next year I'm thinking about taking another dance class. When I'm off to college I want to take more acting workshops, and take vocal lessons to better myself. That's what I've been training for and when I get somewhere close to my dream it's like something isn't going right, or something is wrong.. It's just not fair and it bothers me. I stay a supportive friend and girlfriend and a happy person about it but deep down it hurts me. I want to be up there too... When's it gonna be my turn to do something amazing? I feel worthless and like I'm never good enough. Everything just honestly sucks right now. I guess I just gotta keep hoping for the best and have faith it will all work out in my favor...